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It's a lot of ways that my life coulda went
Ion know how it really got like this
Ion know how the story drop like this
Anything else please not like this
It's a lot of days in my life that I miss
Ion think I ever felt lost like this
Been cold but I never felt frost like this
Anything else please not like this
I guess imma take the blame for it
Strong enough to take it so I guess I'm made for it
I been trynna fix the situation make a way for it
Who I'm kidding this my doing now I gotta pay for it ya dig
And I don't really got too much to say for it
I'm at mercy of the time it take to make a change for it
I been chugga chuggin bottles like I gotta train for it
Trynna juggle these emotions I been getting hate for it ya dig
I'm trynna find the way back to the one I'm needing
To the one who looked past the flaws I was holding when I was bleeding
The one who was everything I could want a woman to be and
The one who I only see in the night when I'm in a dream and
Somehow I keep getting stuck on the way back
I'm going in loops at max speed on a racetrack
They talking bout memories we got I just gotta fake laugh
The life that I wanted is always one that I can't have
Why
I don't even know all I know is
It's a lot of ways that my life coulda went
Ion know how it really got like this
Ion know how the story drop like this
Anything else please not like this
It's a lot of days in my life that I miss
Ion think I ever felt lost like this
Been cold but I never felt frost like this
Anything else please not like this
You only want answers you can't get
They usually all that matter in a mood like this
Keep fighting against yourself and then you might split
Then maybe the other half would be the truth I get
You already know the truth why you move like this
Cause honestly being blind just make the room so bliss
And what if I got it wrong she knew I grew up quick
You already know she prolly thinking you ain't
Imma talk to you later
Hopefully then you won't just be hater
Just want me to give up so that you can take her
I know how the game don been played you a faker
Man what am I doing tell me what I'm saying
I'm losing my mind and I know that they hate it
I'm asking myself how I got here but face it
The life that I'm living it's just my creation
And honestly
I already know why I'm here but
It's a lot of ways that my life coulda went
Ion know how it really got like this
Ion know how the story drop like this
Anything else please not like this
It's a lot of days in my life that I miss
Ion think I ever felt lost like this
Been cold but I never felt frost like this
Anything else please not like this
It's a lot of ways that my life coulda went
I think I'm the reason that it got like this
I took all the pieces made em drop like this
Then prayed it would change please not like this
It's a lot of days in my life that I miss
Ion think I ever felt lost like this
Been cold but I never felt frost like this
Anything else please not like this
Girl what am I doing think I'm bout to lose it and all over you
All over you
Not thinking about me but you number one no you not number two
You not number two
I been having trouble with coming to terms you got somebody new
Got somebody new
It's gon be a while before I get out get somebody too
Get somebody too
Get somebody