KidTruth - Parallel Deliberation Lyrics

Said I hate you
I used to not mean that
I should treat you better
Don't want to believe that
Everytime you lash out
I didn't want to see that
Everytime you black out
I feel like we don't need that
Sometimes I look at you
And I don't recognize the person that I see
I might put a lot of pressure on you
But I only do it when you hassle me
I was there throughout your highs and lows
The ups and downs
The days when you were badly beat
You can hide what you think
But your feelings will come out eventually
That's what it has to be
How many days until you silently lay flat
In that box
They say not to think like that
How can you not
It's like our lives have been hijacked
And your the cause
We keep watching a time lapse
But we're both involved
Try to manage the stressing
Panic it sets in
Trauma haunts and finds a path so it blends in
PTSD is nasty deception
Making it seem like the past is the present
Madness intenses
Then your happiness you happen to question
Sad when expressing
We're the same but we stand opposite
What else you expect when you glance at reflections
Rejection I know what it felt like
But you just hate on others cause it sells right
Had to disappear two years from your peers
And shedded tears when you heard
They served jail time
But you can only blame yourself right
Said you'd let go but you always held tight
Said fine then but you never felt fine
Yeah karma's a bitch and it's well timed
Witnessed you fumble repeatedly
Blowing smoke, it would dissipate
Barely made it through your high school years
Couldn't even find the strength to lift your grades
Saw your relations how you tried to save them
But very good woman slipped away
They all said take a good look in the mirror
So that's what I did today
I'm sorry for everything, woah
I want to know