Shrapnel Video (MV)

I face everybody with a smile
Hiding
I face the mirror in tears
Compress these drums so i drown em
Putting my heart out
It's putrid
Hopeless
Moping
Aloof and nostalgic
Things
Won't be the same will they?
Nothing is ever safe in these hands
I thought you cared cuz i did
Stranded
Left in a deserted island
Surrounded
Deadpan and emotionless
In motion i run
Runnin runnin runnin
Runnin til my lungs collapse
Problems catchin up
Salt water in her lap
My teeth getting well yellow
Relapse
Helpline won't pick up
Liver pain
Live in disdain
Salt water relieves my nausea
Migraines reap my conscience

I've been
Missing people i've cut off
Filtering through messages
Of times run off
Gone off to a hiding place
Where noone can hear me
Chamber of silence
I only fear me
These walls
Are made of iron and plaster
You'll never reach me
Covering emptiness with acted laughter
You'll never reach me
There won't be a forever after
You'll never reach me
You'll never reach me
These days
Steady decaying
Graying in may
Everything escapes
Cigarette ashes
Waiting for nothing to happen
Hoping for warmth
I hop in the shower
Rip away my scabs
I'm stuck in the past
Yet i rot faster

I was
Scared of putting this live
Kinda terrified
Imposter syndrome
Feeling like
I'm such a narcissist
In my eyes
Count the my's and I's
Along these lines
I apologise
No funny rhymes
Just some bitter thoughts
Battling my qualms
They been
Damping my abilities
Insecurities
The reason i fall
Pause
You don't know me anymore
You don't know me anymore do you?
You knew me back then
But back then
Your pictures of me
They weren't so faded
All the way back when
My blood wasn't this tainted
These days i feel like you hate me
Maybe that's an image i painted
You don't believe in me
That's fine
But don't go hide it on my back
Keep your mouth running
I'll cement you in this track
You don't deceive me
Throw your stones
Or stick em up your ass
I give as many f*cks
As the numbers in my stats