Koree - Dear Mary Lyrics

Dear Mary
Dear Mary
Been a year since we last talked
Been thinking bout you lately
So, I thought I'd write this letter
Update you on what's the daily
For me, it's been back and forth
One day good, next record
Marching forth to the beat my own drum (dear Mary)
But some days I feel so dumb
And now I'm numb, but more on that later
Sometimes it feel like none of this matters
My mind's a persuader
But I know it matters like family
And I'm Steve
The odd one out
No one really understands me (dear Mary)
Like you did
I remember right as I embraced the kid
I played a song for you and a tear slid down your cheek
Even though you couldn't form the words
Your eyes could speak (dear Mary)
The first and last time you heard me sing and
You could see
That I was becoming your quincy
Right before your eyes
These were our last goodbyes
And as you cried, those tears told me, "keep on going"
That's how I know it all matters (dear Mary)
So I'll keep on going
Working on myself but I'm feeling so conflicted
One day it's a step forward another day I'm slipping
I look down the road and see myself in the way
First instinct is to fight, but I gotta give some grace (dear Mary)
'Cause he just doing the best he can
And he the only one who truly understands
The pain and pursuit of trying to be a good man
I'm just trying to be a good man Mary, uh
A good man
A good man
Is hard to find
A good, good, good, good
I didn't wanna bring it up in this letter, Mary, but
I gotta keep it real the future looking a little scary
So, instead let's look to the past
Give us the forecast
Lemme look close
I see a little boy
Hiding in his room
Covering his ears (a good man)
'Cause he don't know what to do
He tired of the screaming and yelling
So he turn off the light and cry
But it's too dark
So he turn it back on and lie in his bed (a good, good, good, good)
Regretting begging your son to come home
Now you fast forward and that same kid feel so alone
Deep down, feeling the same, but numb to the pain (a good man)
And he don't know how to explain
All the feelings that slept, deep, down like your daughter
But now she tryna turn it around like you taught her
She feeling alone too
Splitting like James McAvoy
Crazy thoughts going through her head
And while she lay in bed
He open the blinds tryna let the night in (a good, good, a good)
Now his hands tied up
Cause he so tired of
Doing everything alone
Just two kids tryna
Lead a happy home (home)
Now all the babies gone (gone)
No one to challenge the throne so he not home
The past coming back around like a cyclone (like a cyclone)
But the difference is she not alone, uh (alone)
That kid has grown up (grown)
Ready to own up (own)
Cause he tired of (tired)
Covering his ears and wiping the tears (a good, good, good, good)
Time to face all the fears and be a good man (a good man)
Face all the fears and be a good man
A good, good, good, good
But he not alone
There's another man and woman
Who have also grown
Standing back to back
Like you wanted all along, Mary
Uh, bro and sis doing they thang
Tryna push through the pain, like me
We call each other every month, uh
We bonding
I hope that got you smiling
The future might be scary, Mary
But in this moment
We bearing the weight on our shoulders
Tryna be better, Mary
Follow the legacy you left behind
One you were afraid the fam would never find
Be better to each other
Try to find peace and love
Confide in one another
So you can rest above
And I want you to know we trying, Mary
And that's the best we can do
Your legacy is carried
We living through you
As you sit on your cloud, looking down
Knowing what you left behind was found
Yeah
It was found
Uh
I love you, Mary
And, uh
I hope this letter wasn't too long, but
I hope you're resting well up there
So, uh, I guess I'll end it here
I hope this letter finds you well in all your glory
Sincerely, your grandson
Koree