The Dark Side Video (MV)

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The Dark Side, all the hard times
Drowning in my thoughts, better throw me a lifeline
I tried to steer myself, tried to go to that fast life
But I'm crashing into walls, like a dummy on test drives
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I'm getting older, time speed up like a timelapse
Check the memories, forget how much the time passed
I take my pills so my body can just relax
But I take another shot and I just relapse
I'm walking on this Earth, tryna find my purpose
I'm looking at my soul, guess it needs more searching
Had to watch my back, all the demons lurking
I'm looking up to God but the devil's working
Once I moved to London, started hustling
No one even knew that I was young and I was struggling
When I started work, all my efforts started doubling
They only saw me as a troubled kid
Tell me why the police try and take me
Try and give a reason, why you people go and hate me
I never hated guys, even when they tried to break me
I never hated women, even though they try to play me
I never hated gays even when one tried to rape me
Where the hell were you when I was stuck up in the trenches?
They were on the court while I was heating up the benches
I try to say the truth but everything I say is offensive
I'm putting up my wall, sorry my heart's so defensive
These narcissistic little bitches, all up on my business
All these petty women try to put me in the system
Give you free advice, every person end up switching
Just name them a price and then these people turn to snitches
I'm drowning in my thoughts, that's why I'm drowning in the liquor
Maybe if I drank it, it will kill the pain more quicker
I'm feeling suicidal, I should end my life more quicker
The only memory they have of me is Insta' pictures
Sorry if I'm ghosting, had to keep a little distant
I'm questioning my life, nah, I question my existence
I never needed help so I don't need your assistance
I listened to them once, now I put up a resistance
See they clowning me, doubting me they ain't proud of me
That's when the tears come out and now they all surrounding me
They hate the sound of me, shout at me, they reminding me
Why do I still exist? Try to kill when they were pounding me
I just ask myself "why they paint me as the villain"?
I thought that I was human or a normal ass civilian
I'm just like everybody but I'm tryna reach a million
Whether if it's money, fame or power, there's no difference
Now you've heard the darker side
My life ain't picture perfect with a suit and tie
Coming from the bottom, the sewer side
Will I die from age or will my death be ruled a suicide?
You decide
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