Mirror Album Lyrics by Lauren Spencer Smith

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Never Been In Love

I've never been in love
I mean, I've had a few boyfriends
Just didn't enjoy them too much
Think it was more for convenience
Than any real feelings 'bout us
Call it bad luck, 'cause it was all fun
Until it wasn't
Still missing something
I've never been in love

Not the way I want to be
Wish it came more easily

I swear, I think I'm ready
Get me someone who
Will stop me on an airplane
Runway, just to prove
To everyone that we had something serious
Well, maybe you could be my first experience
Oh-ohh-ohh, I know I'm young
But it's so dumb
That I've never been in love
I've never been in love

When I was growing up
My only example
Were people who handled it wrong
They never said their true feelings, yeah
All of my family was

Not the way I want to be
Wish it came more easily

I swear, I think I'm ready
Get me someone who
Will stop me on an airplane
Runway, just to prove
To everyone that we had something serious
Well, maybe you could be my first experience
Oh-ohh-ohh, I know I'm young
But it's so dumb
That I've never been in love
I've never been in love
I've never been in

Love with someone who loves me back
I've never been in
Love enough to make it last
I've never been in love
I've never been in love
But I wanna be in love

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Love Is An Overstatement

Eight months of almost
Of getting too close
It's always on your terms, but they are never fair
You say, "Good morning"
And call me "baby"
You're sending me mixed signals, I don't understand

Three words, but I let it slide
You only mean it 'bout half the time
It's not my fault you can't decide, so

Love is an overstatement
But with you, it's complicated, sometimes
It's not like I'm devastated
But we were good friends and it didn't end right

If there was a line, then you crossed it
If we had a chance, then you lost it
Can we go back in time, when we both used to try?
If there was a line, then you crossed it
If there was a feeling, you fought it
You know I would have waited
But love would be an overstatement

You treat me badly
And patronize me
You say I'm seventeen like that's the reason

Try to blame your trauma
Said I should find another
But I'm not just a sounding board when you're defeated

Three words, but I let it slide
You only mean it 'bout half the time
It's not my fault you can't decide, so

Love is an overstatement
But with you, it's complicated, sometimes
It's not like I'm devastated
But we were good friends and it didn't end right

If there was a line, then you crossed it
If we had a chance, then you lost it
Can we go back in time, when we both used to try?
If there was a line, then you crossed it
If there was a feeling, you fought it
You know I would have waited
But love would be an overstatement

Love would be an overstatement
Love would be an overstatement

Love is an overstatement
But with you, it's complicated sometimes
It's not like I'm devastated
But we were good friends and it didn't end right

If there was a line, then you crossed it
If there was a feeling, you fought it
You know I would have waited
But love would be an overstatement

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Fingers Crossed

Introduced me to your family
Watched my favorite shows on your TV
Made me breakfast in the morning
When you got home from work

Making plans to travel 'round the world
Said we'd always put each other first
Old love songs we used to play to
Funny, now I hate you

Now I remember when you'd call me late at night
I gave you my hours and advice just tryna fix you
And all your daddy issues
But now I don't even miss you anymore

So I, I want all the tears back that I cried
All the hours spent giving advice
On how to write your songs
All you did was prove me wrong
When you said you loved me
Well, you must've had your fingers crossed

Shoulda paid attention to my friends
Telling me how bad it's gonna end
Always giving their opinions
Now I wish I would have listened

I could say I'm sorry but I'm not
You don't deserve the one thing that you lost

Now I remember when you'd call me late at night
And I gave you my hours and advice just tryna fix you
And all your daddy issues
But now I don't even miss you anymore

So I, I want all the tears back that I cried
All the hours spent giving advice
On how to write your songs
All you did was prove me wrong
When you said you loved me
Well, you must've had your fingers crossed
Your fingers crossed
(Oh, oh) your fingers crossed
(Oh, oh) oh, when you said you loved me
Well, you must've had your fingers crossed

So I, I want all the tears back that I cried
All the hours spent giving advice
On how to write your songs
All you did was prove me wrong
Wish you said you loved me
When you didn't have your fingers crossed

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Fantasy

Ditched all of our friends to hang out
We would play pretend like we're already famous
You had all the charm, I was young and stupid
Thought that it was normal getting treated like shit

Every time you had a bad week, you would block me
Miss me, then you added me back, saying, "Sorry"
If it was a part of your plan, then you got me
It's really quite incredible, gotta give you credit though

You always play the victim, used to be convincin'
You loved me when you needed, left when it was easy
Heard you're doing great now, journal and you work out
Into meditation, oh, congratulations
When you gonna call me, and give me that apology?
There I go again, back living in a fantasy

I'm tryna figure out, what's the real truth
Did you really change or do you just want to? (Fake it)
Oh, I don't miss the old you, and I don't like the brand new
Actin' like you care doesn't make you self aware

You always play the victim, used to be convincin'
You loved me when you needed, left when it was easy (oh)
Heard you're doing great now, journal and you work out
Into meditation, oh, congratulations
When you gonna call me, and give me that apology?
There I go again, back living in a fantasy

Funny how a fantasy can end up as a tragedy
All you ever had to be was someone who was nice to me
Gave you every part of me, you took it all so happily (ooh)

You always play the victim, used to be convincin'
You loved me when you needed, left when it was easy
Heard you're doing great now, journal and you work out
Into meditation, oh, congratulations
When you gonna call me, and give me that apology?
There I go again, back living in a fantasy

Fantasy, a fantasy
I'm living in a fantasy
Fantasy, a fantasy
I'm living in a
Living in a fantasy

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Narcissist

They're always charismatic
And they'll turn up the charm
Their words do something magic
Saying no is really hard
They're over-generous
You'll never pay the bills
They'll fall in love in seconds
Die for you or probably kill

(Ooh) and after six months you'll feel really stupid
(Ooh) I promise that it's not your fault you fell for it

'Cause one little fight breaks into war
Feels like you're dying on a bathroom floor
You'll make an excuse, they'll say that it's you
And the mirror's telling you it's true
Won't leave, can't stay, how much are you gonna take?
'Cause you'll always get the blame
It feels like shit, but that's just how it is
When you love a narcissist

So if you're feeling crazy, I wouldn't be surprised
The only thing they're good at's knowing how to gaslight
Then make you feel like you're the most beautiful in the world
While they're sleeping with another girl

(Ooh) and after six months you'll feel really stupid
(Ooh) I promise that it's not your fault you fell for it

'Cause one little fight breaks into war
Feels like you're dying on a bathroom floor
You'll make an excuse, they'll say that it's you
And the mirror's telling you it's true
Won't leave, can't stay, how much are you gonna take?
'Cause you'll always get the blame
It feels like shit, but that's just how it is (ooh)

'Cause I felt like shit, so I know how it is
When you love a narcissist

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Bigger Person

When you'd yell, I would stay silent
You never noticed I was quiet
I was taught that speaking up was talking back

Always first to say I'm sorry
'Cause I wanted you to like me
And I thought that's what it took to make it last

It's a lose-lose
That I don't choose
But you don't always choose the ones you love

I shouldn't have to be the bigger person
How come I have to break to keep us workin'?
It's always up to me
Even though it shouldn't be
I will take the blame the way you want me to
'Cause that's what I do for you

I was half of this dynamic
I was stable you were manic
Without you or with you comes with a cost

I got used to the excuses
And emotional abuses
We kept moving the lines we'd never cross

It's a lose-lose
That I don't choose
But you don't always choose the ones you love

I shouldn't have to be the bigger person
How come I have to break to keep us workin'?
It's always up to me
Even though it shouldn't be
I will take the blame the way you want me to
'Cause that's what I do for you

I always think it's over
But it never really is
'Cause I can't get the closure
When you're like this
Can we switch?

Maybe this time, you'll be the bigger person
'Cause I'm gettin' tired of bearin' all your burden
It should be up to you
But you won't admit the truth, oh, oh, oh

I shouldn't have to be the bigger person
How come I have to break to keep us workin'?
It's always up to me
Even though it shouldn't be
I'll take the blame the way you want me to
'Cause that's what I do for you

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Aftermath

How did I become the toxic one?
I keep on tryin' to unlearn
The person I've become
Why did I ignore all of the signs?
You went from someone I admired
Someone I despise

Thought leaving you'd be easy
But what's good is never easy
And now I'm stuck in therapy

So I changed everything that you hated
Hurt me, then convinced me I was wrong
Only kissed me when I had my make-up on
And I caved
Instead of running, I waited
For you to care enough to fix yourself
Ain't it ironic, now it's me that needs the help?
So even when I'm fine
I can't tell
If I'm happy or I'm sad
'Cause no one ever talks about the aftermath

Guess it's normal when you're sad to speak your mind
They won't tell you that you're crazy
They might even say they're sorry
I'm supposed to stay connected to my friends
I can have a fight
Doesn't have to be the end

I knew you were the problem
Now I'm the one with problems
So I'm still stuck in therapy

So I changed everything that you hated
Hurt me, then convinced me I was wrong
Only kissed me when I had my make-up on
And I caved
Instead of running, I waited
For you to care enough to fix yourself
Ain't it ironic, now it's me that needs the help?
So even when I'm fine
I can't tell
If I'm happy or I'm sad
'Cause no one ever talks

Yeah, even when I'm fine
I can't tell
If I'm happy or I'm sad
'Cause no one ever talks about the aftermath

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28

When you first told me about her
You said she was thirty
And I just can't help but think
You knew it was dirty
And maybe you were just a little sad
But there's no excuse to lie to me like that
When you first told me about her
You said she was thirty

But she's only twenty-eight
I'm not even half her age
She probably just had her first high school reunion
You're probably the first one she's ever moved in with

You think that I wanna hate
But you set me up this way
So for my health I'll be blocking your number
'Cause you couldn't wait 'til I got a bit older

And sometimes I kinda feel like I wanna forgive
But it never crossed your mind
That maybe I'm still a kid
And I'm so used to being the adult
Even when you say it's not your fault
But I'm kinda getting sick and tired of crying
So please stop lying, and lying, and lying

She's only twenty-eight
I'm not even half her age
She probably just had her first high school reunion
You're probably the first one she's ever moved in with

You think that I wanna hate
But you set me up this way
So for my health I'll be blocking your number
'Cause you couldn't wait 'til I got a bit older
To tell me she was twenty-eight
To tell me she was twenty-eight
What the f- is twenty-eight?

You said, "She's mature"
So that makes it okay
And you said, "She likes sports"
So that makes it okay
And she's actually pretty
So that makes it okay
But there's nothing you can say
That makes twenty-eight okay to me

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Best Friend Breakup

Everyone at school thought we were sisters
Dressed the same, talked the same, together all the time
You could find me in your family pictures
Next to you, in the frame, but you moved on and I'm replaced

I only wanted you to be happy
But I never thought it'd be without me

Oh-oh, now you don't know me at all
You left with no warning
Always thought that it'd be love
That was gonna mess me up
Didn't think it'd hurt this much
When best friends break up

You don't even seem upset about it
Guess I'm the one who lost the things you had all the time
You seem like you're cool with or without it
'Cause you put me through hell just to have someone else

I hope he always makes you happy
But why did it have to be without me?

Oh-oh, now you don't know me at all
You left with no warning
Always thought that it'd be love
That was gonna mess me up
Didn't think it'd hurt this much
When best friends break up, break up
I just always thought that it'd be love
That was gonna mess me up
Didn't think it'd hurt this much
When best friends break up

Oh-oh, now you don't know me at all
You left with no warning
Always thought that it'd be love
That was gonna mess me up
Didn't think it'd hurt this much
When best friends break up

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Too Hurt To Fall In Love

Showed up at my house at 8 o'clock
You brought me flowers, looking all dressed-up
It's just like a movie, my favorite scene
I never thought this would happen to me
Hope my broken heart won't mess it up

I take a breath and count to three
Two, three

I don't want to overthink it all
I don't want to ask for reassurance when you call
I keep asking stupid questions, you have only good intentions
I don't want to overthink it all
But what if I'm too hurt to fall in love?

Guess I got dramatic around 10PM
Picking fights and acting like a child again
Yeah, that's classical me, yeah, I'm too sensitive
While you're tryna build, I'm just burning the bridge
Think I don't deserve a happy end

Take a breath and count to three
Two, three

I don't want to overthink it all
I don't want to ask for reassurance when you call
I keep asking stupid questions, you have only good intentions
I don't want to overthink it all
What if I'm too hurt to fall in love?

Why am I so scared to fall in love?

'Cause I don't want to overthink no more
And I don't want to ask for reassurance when you call
I keep asking stupid questions, you have only good intentions
I don't want to overthink it all
But what if I'm too hurt to fall in love?

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Hey

You're kinda loud and I kind of like it
'Cause I'm kind of loud, and you don't make me hide it
We've even got all our friends thinkin' we're a match

I'm waking up to a text from my mom
She said she's obsessed, and she thinks you're the one
Even got me thinking that you might be too

I got used to second-guessin'
You got used to coming second
Just give us a second to unlearn all that we've learned

So, hey, tell me that you'll stay 'til the end
'Cause I don't wanna go from being lovers just to friends
So, hey, don't you dare to play pretend
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
To fall back out of love with you again

All that I know is what I've seen before
'Cause when I get too much, they just walk out the door
I'm scared to commit 'cause I don't know if you could resist
You always leave at the first sight of doubt
And I can't even blame you when she broke her vows
You're scared to commit when nobody's committed to you

I got used to second-guessin'
You got used to coming second
Just give us a second to unlearn all that we've learned

So, hey, tell me that you'll stay 'til the end
'Cause I don't wanna go from being lovers just to friends
So, hey, don't you dare to play pretend
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
To fall back out of love with you again

Heartbreak is hard, but loving is harder
And giving your heart for probable murder
Can we take the risk?

So, hey, tell me that you'll stay 'til the end
'Cause I don't wanna go from being lovers just to friends
So, hey, don't you dare to play pretend
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
To fall back out of love with you again

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Flowers

Took me over to your house to meet your family
Introduce me to them, saying that you'd marry me
Then you'd look me in the eye and say, "It's just a joke"
Then you'd kiss me and I'd smile, did you even know?
When you'd say that kinda thing, I'd be excited
Got me hoping maybe one day you would mean it
Always thought I'd only make a fool of someone else
Now you've only gone and made me make one of myself

I guess that flowers aren't just used for big apologies
I guess I should've been more conscious how you spoke to me
'Cause when we'd fight, you'd give me space and not communicate
And for a while I thought that's what I should appreciate
Maybe I was holding onto what I thought you were
But when you think too hard, eventually it starts to hurt
The version of you in my head, now I know wasn't true
Young people fall for the wrong people, guess my one was you

I was getting any flight so we could make it work
You'd ignore me, coulda told me you were seeing her
Kinda hate myself for justifying your mistakes
Took a minute but I learned that shit the hard way
Who are you to tell me I can't be heartbroken?
Babe, you had the chance, the door for you was open
If it's what you need to tell yourself to sleep at night
Pretend I haven't found a man who finally treats me right

I guess that flowers aren't just used for big apologies
I guess I should've been more conscious how you spoke to me
'Cause when we'd fight, you'd give me space and not communicate
And for a while I thought that's what I should appreciate
Maybe I was holding onto what I thought you were
But when you think too hard, eventually it starts to hurt
The version of you in my head, now I know wasn't true
Young people fall for the wrong people, guess my one was you

If there's anything I've learned, it's you should watch yourself
If it's hurting you, then leave and go and get some help

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That Part

We've only been dating for a year
But I'm gonna take a risk and sound a little weird
I want the picket fences
And an arch around the entrance
Two Ikea twin beds for the kids

It's normal to be a little scared
But I wanna bend the rules and play some truth or dare
So ask me any question
I don't really care
The only thing I care about is if you'll meet me there

And I wanna take your name
And I know you want the same

When you hold me
I see the end of a movie
Everyone thinks that we're crazy
And maybe we are
I hate the middle, let's skip to the part
When you kiss me
Surrounded by friends and our family
Know we're too young to get married
We knew from the start
I'm sick of waiting
So can we just skip to that part?

The only way this is gonna hurt
Is if we got old and you were the one to go first
So I'm wishin' on elevens
That we both meet up in Heaven
And fall in love again just like the first time

And I know it all sounds lame
But I know you feel the same

When you hold me
I see the end of a movie
Everyone thinks that we're crazy
And maybe we are
I hate the middle, let's skip to the part
When you kiss me
Surrounded by friends and our family
Know we're too young to get married
We knew from the start
I'm sick of waiting
So can we just skip to that part?

When I met you
I told my friends that I'd date you
No one believed it would come true
But look where we are
We're on our way
I know one day we'll get to that part

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ILY

This could be something and that makes me nervous
But when we're together, I think that we're perfect
Isn't it?
Really hope I'm not overthinking it

You say I'm pretty and I don't believe you
But you reassure me when I think it's not true
It's definite
Me and you are made to be more than friends

And I
Wish that we'd say it
But scared it will change us
And I
I'll say it first if you do

I, I, I love you
Do you love me too?
Know that you want to
Let's say it together, yeah
I love you

I love you

Say it together, yeah
I love you

Tell me the truth, are we friends or we dating?
'Cause all your "good mornings" got me captivated
Do you mean it?
Am I just another girl on your playlist? Oh, oh

And I
Wish that we'd say it
But scared it will change us
And I
I will say it first if you do

I, I, I love you
Do you love me too?
Know that you want to
Let's say it together, yeah
I love you

I love you

Say it together, yeah
I love you

This distance between us
Is making it hard to tell
So say that you mean it

I, I, I love you
Do you love me too?
Know that you want to
Let's say it together, yeah
I love you

I love you

Say it together, yeah
I love you

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Do It All Again

I wrote this just to tell you
'Cause I finally had the chance to realize
That what you put me through was everything I needed
Didn't know it in the moment
That I wanted something different
But I only saw the broken
And now I see the reason

Why I spent all those nights crying
Nearly getting suicidal
Guess I'm glad that all the bad turned into good

Oh, I'm thankful that I lost you
'Cause I found every part of me
Oh, the healing, it was painful
But the scars didn't cut too deep
'Cause I finally found somebody else
And he loves the things about myself
That you never loved

I wish I coulda' seen how this would end
'Cause now I know how it all ends
And I'd do it all again

I know I put the blame on you
I hope you see that's half the truth
I thought you meant to hurt me
Now I know you didn't mean it
So if I ever think of us
I think of when the good part was
'Cause if you never gave me up
I wouldn't have the one I love

But I spent all those nights crying
Nearly getting suicidal
Guess I'm glad that all the bad turned into good

Oh, I'm thankful that I lost you
'Cause I found every part of me
Oh, the healing, it was painful
But the scars didn't cut too deep

'Cause I finally found somebody else
And he loves the things about myself
That you never loved

I wish I coulda' seen how this would end
'Cause now I know how it all ends
And I'd do it all again

It might've taken therapy
But I bought my mom a house
From the heartbreak royalties
And I don't need your sympathy
'Cause I turned the tears to somethin'
That means more to me

So all I have to say is

That I'm thankful 'cause I lost you
And I found every part of me
Oh, the healing, it was painful
But the scars didn't cut too deep
'Cause I finally found somebody else
And he loves the things about myself
That you never loved

I wish I coulda' seen how this would end
'Cause now I know how it all ends
And I'd do it all again

I could say I'm sorry but I'm not
I got exactly what I want
And I'm so thankful
You had your fingers crossed