Older Album Lyrics by Lizzy McAlpine

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The Elevator

It wasn't slow, it happened fast
And suddenly the only thing I saw was you (mm-mm, mm-mm)
I didn't know the half of it
And suddenly I had everything to lose (mm-mm, mm-mm)

Can we stay like this forever?
Can we be here in this room 'til we die?
I think we can make it
I hope that I'm right

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Come Down Soon

He leans out the window
Of the car as it rolls away
He says, "Do you come here often?"
I have to laugh, 'cause that's so cliché
He knows me too well
So he parks, just to walk me in
He says, "Do you wanna leave yet?"
Only if I leave with him

Oh, it'll come down soon
Nothing this good ever lasts this long for me
Oh, it'll come down soon, you'll see
Oh, it'll come down soon
Nothing this good's ever really good for me
Oh, it'll come down soon, you'll see

"Here's a cigarette"
He offers in his outstretched hand
I remind him, "I don't smoke these"
He says, "I knew that"
Someone opens a window
Music spills onto the dirt
But we stand here in the freezing cold
And wonder who will kiss who first

Something here
I'm biding time 'til it disappears

Oh, it'll come down soon
Nothing this good ever lasts this long for me
Oh, it'll come down soon, you'll see
Oh, it'll come down soon
Nothing this good's ever really good for me
Oh, it'll come down soon, you'll see

(Soon) soon, soon
Oh, it'll come down soon (soon)
Ooh, it'll come down soon (soon)
Oh, it'll come down soon
Oh, it'll come down soon
Ooh-ooh

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Like It Tends To Do

I don't know where we stand anymore
We have cordial conversations
Don't know why I feel I'm faking something
I don't know what to do with my hands anymore
Feels exactly like it was
But at the same time it feels so different

If we were standing in the same room
Would we be in separate corners?
Would I actively avoid you?
If we were standing in the same room
Would you find a little window and finally make your move?
Would it feel like it felt when we had nothing to lose?
Or would everything have changed
Like it tends to do?

I've been standing in the same room
People enter one by one
And I've stopped hoping they'll be you
I've been standing in the same room
You don't visit anymore
But you showed up before the move
I can't tell if it felt like we had nothing to lose
Or if everything had changed
Like it tends to do?

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Movie Star

I'm special, he sees me
He chose me out of everyone
I feel like a movie star in the leading role
Famous to someone

Can I come over?
Will your friends be there?
Even if they are, I don't care
Wish someone would stop me but they never will
Over and over
(Over, over, over, and over)
(Over, over and over, over and over, and over)

I wanna change, I wanna grow
But it's physically impossible
To stand here and not say that I love you
Even if I don't

Who am I to you?
Who am I to myself?
What are you changing about me?
I feel like a movie star, but it's getting old
Being famous for someone

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All Falls Down

Hollowed out, tell me how to be
More like you today, more than a shell of me
Couldn't say who I am right now
Tell me how to keep the time from sticking around

'Cause it all falls down on you at the same time
Yeah, it all falls down on you at the same time

Twenty-three and a sold out show
I am happy, but I'll probably cry after you go home
Doing fine, like I always am
Am I that good of a liar that I believe myself again?

And it all falls down on you at the same time
Yeah, it all falls down on you at the same time

Twenty-two was a panic attack
I can't stop the time from moving and I can never get it back

'Cause it all falls down on you
And it all falls down on you
Then it all falls down on you
And it all falls down on you at the same time
At the same time

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Staying

Whisper to me, baby, I'm too far gone to care
I wish I could have said what I meant when I was right there
Now I'm laying in bed with you, and you're falling asleep
How can you look so peaceful when you know I'm gonna leave?

What happens when you love me dry?
I give myself to help you get by
I keep on lying and sweating at night
Hold me until someone sends me a sign
Mm-mm

Maybe I would be okay if I let this go forever
Send it into space and watch the planet stir
Maybe I will someday let this go forever
Hold me until I find enough

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I Guess

Straighten your tie, we're not alone
I'll tell a lie just to bring you home
We danced together, you're not that good
I'll tell a lie but it's understood

I guess it's all about timing
I guess it's all about the things you want but never get
I guess it's all about trying
To love someone you've never met

We eat our dinner, then we undress
And now we're equal, more or less
Now I am sick and you're probably drunk
You're saying things and they sound like love

I guess it's all about timing
I guess it's all about the things you have but didn't want
I guess it's all about dying
To love someone

Wish it was easy, I wish I knew
What I was doing, but I never do (here we go)

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Drunk, Running

What did you mean when you said that
You were sober now?
Caught you in bed with a Red Bull Vodka
Two weeks out

No one stops you
Nobody takes it from your hand
Even when you
Break your leg drunk running
Someone ought to
Hold you to your words
Say, "I love you"
And then drink it backwards

What if it was all my fault?
What if I drove you to it?
I was only honest sometimes
And I think you knew it
Make a person out of memories they won't live up to it
I'm so sorry I stayed when I shouldn't

No one stops me
Nobody takes you from my hand
Even (even) when you (when you)
Break your leg drunk running
Someone (someone) ought to (ought to)
Hold me to my words
Say, "I love you"
And then drink it backwards
Say, "I love you"

(Okay)

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Broken Glass

Broken glass on the table
Pick it up, hold it to your throat
I can see who you are now that the window's broke
Drop of blood on the carpet
Didn't think it would go this far
Don't know why I held on this long, but here we are

I know you've been hurt
But you did it first to me
We started with the end
Broken glass again

Maybe it doesn't matter
Who the blame gets assigned to next
Nothing's ever the way that I remember it

You know I've been hurt
Did I do it worse to you?
We started with the end
Broken glass again
Again

I want you now, and then I don't
And every word is a landmine
I hold the glass against your throat
But I can't do it this time
It might seem like I love you
But I just don't want to be alone

We started with the end
Broken glass again
We're coming to the end
Breaking glass

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You Forced Me To

You're on top of me and I'm under you
And it never stops, I am guilty, aren't you?
No one gets to win, so we will both lose
Tell me why you think you love me
I am guilty, you're a fool

I want you to hate me, I deserve it for my crimes
I know that I loved you but you loved me harder every time
I am not the same as when you met me
I have changed because you forced me to

I want you to hate me, I deserve it for my crimes
I know (I know) that I (that I) loved you (loved you)
But you (but you) loved me harder every time
I am not the same as when you met me
I have changed because you forced me to

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Older

Over and over, a carousel ride
Pay for your ticket, watch the red moon climb
Sick to my stomach, can't find the ground
Stuck in a loop, watch the curtain come down

Thought it'd be over by now
Thought you would leave
Thought I would come to my senses
Wish I was stronger somehow
Wish it was easy
Somewhere I lost all my senses
I wish I knew what the end is

Over and over, watch it all pass
Mom's getting older, I'm wanting it back
Where no one is dying, and no one is hurt
And I have been good to you instead of making it worse

Thought it'd be over by now
Thought you would leave
Thought I would come to my senses
Wish I was stronger somehow
Wish it was easy
Somewhere I lost all my senses
I wish I knew what the end is

I wish I knew what the end is

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Better Than This

One, two, three

There's someone at my door, I can hear him knocking
If I let him inside it will all be true
I didn't know that I was capable of all of this
Look what I've turned into

What if I'm not a good person?
You always say that I am
You don't really know me at all
Now I think that I'm not who you think I am
But I like to be seen and I like to be wanted
Wanted to mean something now
And we never quite knew how to be honest
Honest to God, I should go

Someone will love me better than this
Better than this
Someone will love you better than this
Better than this

What if I'm not a good person?
You always say that I am
You don't really know me at all
Now I have you right in the palm of my hand
'Cause I like to be seen and I like to be wanted
Always could count on you there
It's probably wrong that I never was honest
Honest to God, I was scared

That someone will love me better than this
Someone will love you better

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March

Threw a rock into the water
Watched it sink down to the bottom
Tryna find the lesson in it all, but
I haven't learned anything

Never looked much like my father
One year older but somehow I feel younger
I see him more now that he's gone
Or maybe I just see him in everything

And how could it take so long?
Thought I had it handled but it slipped through
I didn't know it'd be this hard
So far away, and then it hits you

Called you when I heard the news
Spent the night lying next to you
What a way to start it off
So heavy from the start

And how could it take so long?
Thought I had it handled but it slipped through
Didn't know it'd be this hard
So far away, and then it hits you
So far away, and then it hits you
So far away, and then it hits you
Like it was yesterday

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Vortex

I know it's not my fault
But I can't say I'm blameless
Carry the pain 'til it stops
Undress it until it's nameless

Someday, the world will stop
And it will feel just like this did
I know it's not my fault
Sometimes it feels like I did this

Oh, oh
Someday, I'll be able to let you go
Oh, oh
Someday, I'll be kinder to myself

One second into the next
I never know where my feet are
We're spinning out of a vortex
I don't remember who we are

Oh, oh
Someday, I'll be able to let you go
Oh, oh
And it's harder when you know all that we know

And you're screaming at me, and I'm watching it fall
And I'm slamming the door and you make yourself tall
But it's always an act and it never lasts long
'Cause I always come back when I need a new song
And I'm tired of this and the way that it feels
I'm not there anymore, this has never been real
We're just awful together and awful apart
I don't know what to do anymore

Oh, oh
Someday, I'll be able to let you go
Oh, oh
Someday, you'll come back and I'll say no