Lalla Rolca - BLUE CRUSH Lyrics

Could someone explain what happened
'Cause I woke up and u were gone
Somewhere West side of Europe
Now all these flashes in my head
Screamin' I wasn't dreaming
We were there lost in the waves
You, told me not to be afraid
Both to blind to understand
That we would end up falling
Swore it was hate at first sight
I never thought could change my mind
But we were undeniable
Now look at us, caught feelings 'stead of waves
Why do I feel so ashamed feeling so free ?
Now blink of eye, here you are
On this f*cking plane
Left me to my fate
Songs i dedicated
All looping in my head
Through my sleepless nights
Put me in rewind
Lyrics bring me back
Time when I was almost yours
You were almost mine
Please get me out of my mess like you used to do
When you were always behind sayin' you told me so
And I'll smile cause
You'll never have a clue
That
No one else compares to you
Nothing will compare to us
Back when we dipped into blue
Overcame my biggest fear
Cause as long as you were here
I knew angels were on my side
(On my side)
But you're all gone now
So far from you
My heart gone blue
Now all my days are longer
People all the same
Nothing ever changes yet nothing is the same
What does the blue of ocean even mean now ?
You, left a gaping hole in my damn heart
Deeper than the deep blue
Deeper than the Mariana trench
Nothing's fun anymore without your laugh
So cold away from you
My heart froze
Until the moon is full
How do I find myself saying your name
In every single conversation ?
So ashamed that I'll always find myself
Seeking for your eyes
In his gaze
Trust me if I could forget you I would
Well... Maybe not
Was I even alive
('til I found him)
Before I found him ?