I wish I was different
The way I check my phone every five
Just to see if I'm the one that they're Missing
All my plans were just a vision
With a white picket fence
And a man that knows how to listen
Isn't it strange
When your own brain
Turns on you
Nothings the same
Since that day
He turned me blue
To have all of the things I want
A mind that doesn't think so much
To know a different kind of love
Where I don't doubt that I'm enough
A different life doesn't sound bad
All of the things I wish I had
But who I am I can't take back
I can't take it back
Oh, I wish I was different
Every time that I am alone
No one knows
All the things that I'm actually feeling
And I go out every weekend
To make everyone laugh
So they don't see the way that I'm Actually bleeding
Isn't it strange
When your own brain
Turns on you
Nothings the same
Since that day
He turned me blue
To have all of the things I want
A mind that doesn't think so much
To know a different kind of love
Where I don't doubt that I'm enough
A different life doesn't sound bad
All of the things I wish I had
But who I am I can't take back
I can't take it back
Isn't it funny, honey
With all of the money
All of these friends
Oh, I'm still lonely
All the things I lack
And I can't take it back
Isn't it crazy, baby
With all that I'm making
Everyone's talking but
I'm still faking
I know that I'm off track
And I can't take it back
I wish I was different
The way I check my phone every five
Just to see if I'm the one that they're Missing