But There's Hope Video (MV)

This is different its one take
Its just me expressing myself
Its not fake there's no processing
I hope it all makes sense
Its even freestyle so
I don't know how this will go

Lately I have been debating how I Should be feelings
Everybody here is reeling in pain
Everybody's asking if I am insane
Well I don't know anymore
I've been wondering if we can Express ourselves
I've been wondering if we can talk About that time
No no mention of it
Really wonderin' how you are just Fine
Every time the people been asking You how you doing you always be Tell them good even if that's not the Truth
Really wondering how we're Supposed to grow if we can't admit The ugly feelings inside our soul
I don't know, I don't know
I don't have it all down
I don't even know
If I should just let it all out or just let It grow inside of me what's wrong With me
All these, all these feelings
Childhood scars and trauma I've been Reeling
I'm set back and everyone says there's No defeating you
Cause, right
You've been saved by grace you have Been made renewed but that doesn't Mean you shouldn't see a therapist Too
Yeah its just the truth

Mainly I've been wondering if I Should let these feelings consume me And every time I talk about it I Should just be the one who's been Saying all of these things on repeat
Like a broken record
I am broken I am broken I am Broken

Like I've been dealing with the Trauma
And everybody says all you have is Drama
I don't know if that's really the cool Thing to say
I don't know if that's really the true Thing to say
But when should I stop and when Should I start when should I share And when should I just move on
It has no answer
Recently i've been praying I 've been Trying to search the lord
I know that that's always the answer
And everybody's imploring me to be Giving something else
But that's just all I have
I don't have a perfect answer I don't Have a perfect rhyme
Sometimes I'm off beat in this take And that's just fine
Because truthfully I just wanna Express the fact of the matter that we Are just ugly messes
Recently my sin has been eating at Me clawing
And I just.. this is just the first time I've been realizing this is truly who I am
Its made new but I still deal with sin
Right is that ok to say
Can I be telling everybody that I'm Not ok
Can I be admitting without this Without saying everything is pain
Can I tell the truth and not obsess With it
Like I am insane because I finally Admit it
Its like a flood the whole dam cracked
Now its flowing out
Everybody's telling me that I'm not Supposed to say it

Like when do you share it and when Do you stop
And I know already said this but I'm Just not done with
I don't know there's so much more to Life than this
I want you to be feeling.. feeling like You can share all the ugliness all the Ugly mess
All the ugly feelings inside you
All those ugly tragedies and all the Things that happened to you
I want you to feel comfortable to say
No I'm not fine
How you doing
I'm alright or I'm just bad man
I'm just trying to get by
This week was worse than the last
I just wanna make it through this one
I just wanna make it through this one

And I hope you make it through this One
I know you can make it through this One
I know that we can do it
I know we can admit all our ugly Feelings and take the next step to get Right through it
I wish there was a better answer
You just gotta embrace it say it sucks And move past it
Cause I know its not your master
I'ts supposed to be Jesus Christ
He is there he has the master blaster
I know Im making humor of these Ugly feelings
I know I'm tryna move on and it feels Like its fleeting
Like I don't just understand it all
You just don't understand
That's what I'm hearing right

I know I'm not the man I know I Don't get it
I know I don't understand all the ugly Feelings you've been feeling but
I just wanna say there's hope and There's pleasure
Facing the lord and saying its all Better
Like acknowledging that you're still In a drowning sea
Your face is covered by water your Hand is barely above it
Sayin' I'm just reaching for him
And knowing that he's coming and Knowing that he's there
He'll pull you up like you're peter Walking on the water
And you just have to have faith and I Know I'm something else because I'm Made renewed in him
I'm made renewed renew renew.. I Can't say it
Something better
These ugly feelings aren't defining Me
I wanna admit that I have them and Talk to others
Because we're called to lift each other Up doesn't mean that it defines me in My entirety
There's more to me than what I'm Feeling
At the moment
I think that I am something else
At the moment I'm trying not to cry
Because i've been feeling it
Feeling all these ugly feelings what of It
Friendships are fleeting bullying it is Coming
Wondering if ill ever get a girl get a Wife have kids people always ask These questions
That what I grew up with
That's what I grew up with
And now all the friends that I grew Up with
Are dead or on drugs or they're all Gone
And I don't know what to say to that
Like man that sucks I'm sorry you're Going through that
That was my own life and that was My old life
And now the new me is renewed in Christ and its alright
Cause I can still admit that we've Been struggling
I can still admit that we are been Going through these things and it is Pummeling me
The way I've been feeling like I am Cracking underneath
That's why I've been giving it to God And then I see relief
That's why I know that I'm not Enough
But I see that his release is something Greater he made the world in his Whole hands and everybody Wonders why there's no concept to Understand the fact of the mater that We are just inept
To comprehend it all in its entirety
And that's ok
I want you to have hope I want you To have peace
I want you to raise your hands and Say its not ok
It is not ok I'm crying I just want Relief
Pray to him pray to him
I know its ok pray to him
Crying on the shoulder of the loved Ones pray to him still
Because he's the one giving you the Shoulder to cry on
Something to feel besides all the pain
Something to know that you are still Loved through it all even if you feel Insane
I hope this all makes sense
God loves you and hes the best