Lil Quixxly - DROWNING IN THE CLOUDS Lyrics

Why can't they love me like everyone else?
Why can't they love me like others do?
The ones farthest from me try hard to help
But not the one I can't afford to lose (I can't lose them)
Why can't they love me like everyone else?
Why can't I be treated the same?
I'm living in heaven, but my mind's in hell
I just wanna know why our friendship changed

I get love a lot, but I'm only waiting for theirs
Don't know why I'm like this, I can't get them to care
I overlook others' kindness, 'cause it's them I wanna hear from
Why am I still trying? They're the one I get my tears from
I don't know how it feels to live a day or two in peace
My problems just leave and come back, just repeats
I'm in the clouds, I have the power to be happy, but I'm not
I got everything but them, and they're the only one I want
Giving ten times more than I should hoping for a tenth back
After all that, I ain't got no thanks sent back
I'm exhausted tryna keep our friendship intact
By myself, no they won't help
I don't know how, but I'm drowning in the clouds
Most like me, but the one that don't is the most loud
Why are things so fragile? What the f*ck is with my terrible luck
I thought I was too careful, clearly wasn't careful enough
Stalling, stalling my sorries, sorries
I know that I'm always f*cking up the party (I f*cked it up)
When they ask if I'm upset, I just say that I'm tired
What if I say things wrong, and I set my life on fire?
My happiness is temporary, it ends when I talk to them
Starts again when I talk to them, wish I also meant a lot to them
Other friends like my company, but they aren't them
Sure, they're friends, but ain't the one I wanna be with (no)

Why can't they love me like everyone else?
Why can't they love me like others do? (they don't)
The ones farthest from me try hard to help
But not the one I can't afford to lose
Why can't they love me like everyone else?
Why can't I be treated the same?
I'm living in heaven, but my mind's in hell
I just wanna know why our friendship changed

I gave all my money just for you to love me
I tried to be funny just for you to hug me
I gave all my energy, I can't end up losing we
I try, deny the fact that you could be using me
Do you have to be so open 'bout your feelings for her?
You know how I feel for you, it's like you're rubbing it in my face
I'm trying for us, was my mess up trying to take it further?
I can't be saying all this, but it f*cks me up everyday
"I want someone like me," look right in front of you
Look at all I've done for you, I just wanted love from you
Been doing this since we met, I just wanted the best for you
Your hurt towards me, I let, it kept us near, but I wept
The stupid shit from my mouth makes the real things seem fake
I can't take that you can't take me seriously
All my feelings ignored, so I ain't healing no more
I can't kneel on the floor anymore, all my hope's out the door
Don't know how, but I'm drowning in the clouds
I should be happy, but I'm not, why am I not pleased now?
When I'm with you, I just rant while mad
I won't change if you can't

Why can't you love me like everyone else?
Why can't you love me like others do?
The ones farthest from me try hard to help
But not you, who I can't afford to lose
Why can't you love me like everyone else?
Why can't I be treated the same?
I'm living in heaven, but my mind's in hell
I just wanna know why our friendship changed

To tell the truth
You can live your life without me, a day I can't go
What if I'm the only one that thinks we're close?
The closer I try to get, the farther we go
What am I doing wrong? My brain's too slow
What went wrong? I was careful with the plot
But now I'm watching my life rot
How did I miss my shot? How did I miss my shot?
How did I miss my shot? How did I miss my shot?