LockeHutch - emotions Lyrics

My head is loud so I speak slowly,
Thoughts they follow me.
Ghost you, block you, try to forget you,
Numb the pain away.
You compliment me, validate me,
Lies are all I hear.
Hate you, love you, can't live without you,
So what do I do?
When i can't believe
Anything that I see
Or hear with certainty,
Just stay with me please.
I've become so numb to my emotions,
Please know I'm still here.
I miss you dearly, please don't leave me,
I'm trying to be seen.
My heart is aching, the toll it's taking,
I can't seem to change.
You're all around me, laughing, taunting,
With what I could've had.
If I just grew up, could show my love,
Only in my dreams
I'd find you, kiss you, tell you what you mean,
Then would you believe.
That I don't wanna be
With these uncertainties
About how I'm perceived
I wish I could believe
I've become so numb to my emotions,
Please know I'm still here.
I miss you dearly, please don't leave me,
I'm trying to be seen.