CTE Video (MV)

I don't wanna hear what you gotta say
I don't wanna hear a word
I just wanna go and rot away
Poor some liquor on the curb
Doing this s*** my own way
F*** it n**** I'm disturbed
Put it all on the beat and verse
Til the day that I leave this earth
What's the worth? If everything I do you criticize
I try to see life through the critic's eyes
I swear you just wanted a different life
So you cut mine down with a kitchen knife
But I'm b******* right? this is life
F*** you twice ain't no kiss good night
Used to pray I don't need to keep the pistol tight
Now I'm fiending for the drama kinda miss those nights
Gripping up for war kicking in the door
Thinking you was hard n**** hit the floor
N**** this the storm you ain't listen for
You was misinformed now you missing form
This is what happens when push comes to shove
A n**** just push you right over the edge
Clouds open up for the flight of a dove
And I just sober up with a flow for the dead
Open my head find a labyrinth in it
Corroding with webs and the battle infinite
Control in my bed say the prayers from the chest
I confess I'm a mess only happy when sinning
I rap from the spirit f*** asking forgiveness
For pulling your card and then smacking you wit it
You act like you're living the life of a saint
But your actions they fib you just acting it n****
Who the f*** are you to judge
I don't know who to love
Bull inside of a China shop
Is metaphor for what I do in clubs
Ain't doing drugs just sipping some yak
Put a beat on take a trip and relax
Me and G sipping that Cc
The bottle decreasing and I'm just gon' sip til I yack

Good or bad there's always repercussions
They don't even need discussion
CTEating me alive I don't even need concussion
Wanna bleed but now I'm gushing
Hit the street and now I'm bustin
Gotta keep the vibe and be the guy
But to me inside I'm nothing

Call it humility call it a flaw
Call it tranquility call it a brawl
Life is a b**** and I'm all in her bra
Letting her slip away watching her fall
Hitting the gas and I'm revving the pedal
Adrenaline junkie my pen is the metal
I'm going to Cuba to visit my fam
And then go and ask 2Pac if heaven has ghettos
Take a trip, make it quick
This is it, I ain't taking s***

Good or bad there's always repercussions
They don't even need discussion
CTEating me alive I don't even need concussion
Wanna bleed but now I'm gushing
Hit the street and now I'm bustin
Gotta keep the vibe and be the guy
But to me inside I'm nothing