To Be Eaten Alive Album Lyrics by Mariah the Scientist

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Heaven Is a Place On Earth

Said I'm climbin' up this stairway to Heaven
Wonder what I might see from up there
Maybe mountains, maybe valleys of despair
Guess it's true what they say
In the end we regret the chances we don't take
Maybe it's best to make some mistakes
The greatest wins are not made from playin' shit safe
But I do now, 'cause I got shit to lose now
Dreams of us paintin' the crib blue now
You think I'll give it up just for a Patek or a bottle of Ace of Spades
Or one of these niggas tryna buy me a Wraith
I do that on my own, think again
Think of all the places I'll see 'cause of this pen, oh
Blood, sweat and tears put in this throne I built by hand
Can't share it with just anybody
'Cause everybody ain't your friend
So in case this is the last letter that I wrote
Make sure it's to my baby sayin', "One day, I'll be home"
To kiss you on the forehead and tell you that I'm sorry (sorry)
And at least your mama wasn't no vibe in someone's lobby
It's been a year now and it's always gon' be hard
But I at least held you down and played my part
Stuck with you under blue sky, stuck with you in the dark
Before we had to keep sticks and a legal tint on all these cars
But baby (baby), I never promised you it'll always be the same (baby)
I only promised you my love will never change (baby)
Wish you told me that it would have been this dangerous (yeah)

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Good Times

Should've known you'd die in color
Never alone now for your brothers
You're spendin' more time in L.A.
Shouldn't be long, but I won't wait

But if I could get it back, baby, I'd
Meet you on Northwest, no drive
In the backseat 119
Can I forget? Well, we could see
But if I could get it back, baby, my
Lord knows I've tried
To see if I'd see it in your eyes
Thinkin' of the good times, baby

Don't wanna hear you say I'm your favorite girl, no
I'd be a fool to believe you'll let me rule your world
Don't wanna hear you say that you love me when I know you don't
I'd be a fool to believe it, so, you know I won't

But if I could get it back, baby, I'd
Meet you on Northwest, no drive
In the backseat 119
Can I forget? Well, we could see
But if I could get it back, baby, my
Lord knows I've tried
To see if I'd see it in your eyes
Thinkin' of the good times, baby

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From a Woman

(We got London on da Track)

I close my eyes and trust your plan
Won't let no one force my hand
You've paid the cost for true romance
And you want my love again
I thought I seen it all before
And now I've seen so much more
And finally, some doors will close
But here's to open windows and

Look at the trust closin' in
Here's to someone I can depend on, yes
Sent from above, I am convinced
If it isn't luck, I guess love exists

Tell me how it all ends up in the open (it exists)
We can watch it all slow down in a moment, don't it? (It exists)
Seems like you changed your mind, and it's showing (it exists)
Seems like you can't deny the emotion from a woman

I roll the dice and take a chance
Won't let no one say I can't
Won't call you slime 'cause it don't fit
I see you as more than this
I bought dreams not to mention
You pay me back and then some
We made a pact to listen
And now I know what I was missing

And look at the trust closin' in
Here's to someone I can depend on, yes
Sent from above, I am convinced
If it isn't luck, I guess love exists

Tell me how it all ends up in the open (it exists)
We can watch it all slow down in a moment, don't it? (It exists)
Seems like you changed your mind, and it's showing (it exists)
Seems like you can't deny the emotion from a woman

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40 Days n 40 Nights

I put a hundred miles on the AMG tonight
And take it anywhere but home
Scent lingerin' all on my clothes
I turn the ringer on my phone off
I'll give you your distance
As if you've already made a commitment
To be someone else's
I must respect it
Though I'd be lyin' if I said I didn't want you to myself
When you looked me in my eyes and tell me that it's mine
I made them sacrifices
Spent forty days and forty nights
Withdrawin' from ecstasy
Gave you what was left of me
Baby, it's hard enough learnin' to let you go
Can't imagine teachin' someone else how
Hate the fact I can't leave you alone
Tired of lyin' to myself 'bout this
Feelin' that never dies now
Every night when I'm on my own
Only business livin' in my mind
Ever time I was ever told not to get my feelings intertwined
I should have listened
Now I'm in here missin' you

It's been a while, baby girl, I been out the way
I been tryna set things here straight
I got opp niggas too close to where I stay
And my brainwaves goin' eighty-eighty-eight
Baby, how come you never check on me?
How come you the first thing on my mind when I'm lonely?
I lost my lover and my homie
Oh, baby, hold me
You took the time to open up with all your scars and insecurities
But I wasn't ready for it
I took the time to learn your body
So I f*cked you like nobody ever did
And you wasn't ready for it
Top floor, penthouse in Miami, balcony
Does that bring back all your memories?
Is that the only way you remember me?
Oh, baby (baby)
Hunnid miles on the Wraith just so we can f*ck again (yeah)
All because of you, I can't love again
Do you ever think about what you did to me? (Yeah)
Spiritually and mentally
Oh, baby, I fell in love with someone who was in love with someone else
I'm cuttin' ties with everybody who ain't good for my health (shit)
I ain't even good for myself these days
Oh, baby, oh, baby, oh, baby
(I ain't even good-)

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Out of Luck

Can't afford you
Can't pretend, can't move forward
I'm all in, I'm all for you
I'm depending on this, oh-oh

If I, if I was losin' you
Maybe, would you make me believe?
Believe that I'm all out of luck, luck
And if I, if I was losin' you
Maybe, would you make me believe?
Believe that I'm all out of luck, luck

Yes, I'm more than a little
You'll be preoccupied
Meet you all in the middle
Baby, have you lost your mind now?
Gettin' up and into it
If I need undivided time
I'm onto you
Baby, I'm onto you
If you treat me right
You won't need another lover
Can you fantasize
All the things that ever honored
True and made you cry
You won't need another woman
'Cause, baby, I'll be there

If I (if I), if I was losin' you
Maybe (maybe), would you make me believe?
Believe that I'm all out of luck, luck
And if I (if I), if I was losin' you
Maybe (maybe), would you make me believe?
Believe that I'm all out of luck, luck

Out of luck
I'm all out of luck
I'm all out of luck

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Bout Mine

Feelin' lost, feelin' nervous
And I know I don't deserve this
What's it cost?
'Cause I want you back, babe
Goin' out sad lately

Blockin' my call, don't tempt me
Promise, I won't let you forget me
I'll remind you every time
You a vibe but you done lost your f*ckin' mind

Oh-oh, I, I said I want you bad
Hope everybody in here knows that I
Won't hesitate to crash
Bet you know how I'm
I bet you know how I'm comin'
And even if it takes all night (takes all night)
Baby, I got nothin' but time
We finna make this right
'Cause you know I don't
I bet you know I don't play about mine

Took a loss, ain't nothin' perfect
Plus all these different versions
Got my wires crossed
There's no goin' back, babe
This could end tragically

Higher than most, I'm lifted
Keep it on me, no need in pretendin'
I'll remind you every time
You a vibe but you done lost your f*ckin' mind

Oh-oh, I, I said I want you bad (I want you bad)
Hope everybody in here knows that I
Won't hesitate to crash
Bet you know how I'm
I bet you know how I'm comin'
And even if it takes all night (takes all night)
Baby, I got nothin' but time
We finna make this right
'Cause you know I don't
I bet you know I don't play about mine

Mine, mine, mine, mine, mine, mine, mine, mine, mine, mine
(You know I don't play about mine)
Mine, mine, mine, mine, mine, mine
Mine, mine, mine, mine

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77 Degrees

Seventy-seven degrees in this city tonight
Nothin' else on my sleeve, pride and feelings aside

Too many thoughts, too many issues
Too many nights I go to deprived
Too many nights without a kiss from you
Won't even think to say good night this time

Let me, let me, let me guess
Know you ain't in love, you probably with your ex, though
She thinks it's current, what a f*ckin' mess, you
You hit her 'round and hit me with a text
Where the f*ck you at?
Stirrin' up commotion, why you worrie?
I'm steady poppin' shit, I do it well
I, I never ask for much, I know you heard me
I got no problem slidin' by myself instead
Havin' motion
If it ain't for love and devotion
I thought that it was me that you wanted
I'm caught in the heat of the moment, yeah, yeah

Seventy-seven degrees (degrees, degrees)

I'm always on your time, yeah (yeah, yeah)
I hope you really mine, I be movin' on your (on God), yeah
Okay, arch that back, let me show you how it get (ooh)
Can't no pretty boy have you feelin' like this (ooh)
I'm a gangsta, she like the way that I choke her when we kiss (ooh)
I got a technic service with the blick (on God)
I'm cold hearted but I still show her love
I ain't finna share you girl, you know that's a dub
She say she outside with her friends and it's up
That good dick'll make her leave the club
I can't even hide it, I got feelings for you (feelings for you)
If they ever play, you know I'm drillin' for you (drillin' for you), yeah
Girl, I got more chopsticks than Tao and Nobu
Cover you in diamonds like a real one 'posed to
Huh, I'm just movin' how a real one move
You make my day whenever you send me nudes
Broke your heart a thousand times and you still come through
I'm a FaceTime away, you know I'm comin' to

Seventy-seven degrees in this city tonight
Nothin' else on my sleeve, pride and feelings aside

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Different Pages

Haven't spoken since I left New York
But I guess you left me here with no choice
Didn't bother comin' back that night
You didn't even wish me a safe flight
You aren't the nigga that I thought you were
Just a boy, will address you as such
And a boy could never be enough
I let myself down, I'll let myself up

You can blame it on temptation
Blamin' lack of communication
And all we needed was a single conversation
And maybe just a little motivation
Baby, you could blame it on temptation
Blamin' lack of communication
And all we needed was a single conversation
And maybe just a little motivation
Lately, we just been on different pages

Never asked for much, not even my way
That was enough to have you lookin' at me sideways
But not enough to make a nigga come home and right all his wrongs
I knew you never loved me, and still let you lead me on like
Baby, oh, baby
Where would we be if we just had learned to be patient?
All them, "What ifs" and all them late night conversations 'bout what we could have
It ain't nothin' but understood that I let a nigga play me (play me)
Won't let you do it twice, won't do the same thing (same thing)
Won't let you make it right, no need in changing
No need in claiming me
And as much as you know it pains me

You blame it on temptation
Blamin' lack of communication
And all we needed was a single conversation
And maybe just a little motivation
Baby, you could blame it temptation
Blamin' lack of communication
And all we needed was a single conversation
And maybe just a little motivation
Lately, we just been on different pages

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Lovesick

Baby, I wish it were different
My words, my visions
Our world beginnin'
Now, it is glistenin' too
Even when I think I suffer
I think of your kids, your mother
Then I'll have to come in, my lover
When I think of how it must feel to be you

In my eyes, nobody gets it
In my heart, in my defense
I'm just lovesick, something we can't resist
First I'm certain then I'm on the fence
Distant, then I'm in your skin
It's endless how this pain persists
I'm just lovesick

You know I think of all the times I been lonesome
And I think of all the times I've cried
You know I really could've used that shoulder
You know I really need you by my side
You know I think about it every night
And I can't help for count for days
You know I just can't seem to find
All the words I need to say

In my eyes, nobody gets it
In my heart, in my defense
I'm just lovesick, something we can't resist
First I'm certain then I'm on the fence
Distant, then I'm in your skin
It's endless how this pain persists
I'm just lovesick

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Ride

(AJ Stay Workin, on God)
This the right tune?
Okay

If you told them you love me, then just say it again, yeah
You said you trust me, need to show me then
I'm tryna cut back, bae, I'm always spendin'
I'm tryna be serious, but I always grin
She said she was finna love, it was 'bout that time to see
Okay, I drip love, do you need an IV?
I've been livin' higher, because they be tryna get us
Every day is Christmas, yeah, yeah-yeah
We ain't the same, we ain't the same, nah
Peep the range, it's ten feet tall
I'm rockin' white and I've been matchin' the Off-White walls
While I wipe off, the maid changed the sheets, oh
I keep a bad one, and she keep my meat tall
I keep a bad one, just incase some people flog
I took a bad one with me to go count the stars
And see her body parts, I keep that black key card

Ridin', ridin', ridin', yeah (ride, ride, ride, ride)
Right by your side, side, side, yeah (side, side, side, side)
I took it far, I feel you hard
Bonnie and Clyde, you took the charge
No, you won't get tired, tired, tired (tired, tired, tired, tired)
If you stay with me for life, life, life (life, life, life, life)
I can keep you runnin' wild, wild, wild
Treat you like my child if you throw in the towel

You say if I'm yours then I could have it all
He just say the words, and he can rest assure
There's nothin' in this world that I ever wanted more
Nothin' like them girls you've ever loved before
I said what I said, and I'll say it again
I'm the best for you and it is what it is
Love me some Spider, while they turnin' Miss to Missus
Said I'm Mariah, I might change it to Williams
I can get you high like a G5, baby
Like it when I ride 'til I drive you crazy
Right here by your side when you ride that Mercedes
Can't even get the coupe, need the room for the babies
Tell me would you (tell me would you ride) ride?

Ride, yeah (ride, ride, ride, ride)
Right by your side, side, side, yeah (side, side, side, side)
I took it far, I feel you hard
Bonnie and Clyde, you took the charge
No, you won't get tired, tired, tired (tired, tired, tired, tired)
If you stay with me for life, life, life (life, life, life, life)
I can keep you runnin' wild, wild, wild
Treat you like my child if you throw in the towel

And I don't wanna lose your love