Matthew Sweet - Behind The Smile Lyrics

I haven't been a good friend
For a long, long time.
You know I wasn't happy
Behind the smile.
Anywhere you look
A reason to believe.
But think of what it took
To bring me to my proper place.

And I haven't been a good friend
For a long, long time.
I haven't been a good friend
While you've been mine.

Now am I by side
Or standing in your way?
'Cause if this is a sign
I don't know what it's supposed to mean

And I haven't been a good friend
For a long, long time.
I haven't been a good friend
While you've been mine.

[Solo]

I have seen my perfect day
I have watched it fade away.
You know I'm fighting to believe.
I haven't been a good friend
For a long, long time.
You know I wasn't happy
Behind the smile.