Melancholic Seasons - That's Why Lyrics

Lying on a bed of nails I´m bleeding
I feel the thorns of life in me
My feelings tell, there ain´t no healing
Until death where is hall be

Chorus:
That´s why I kill myself
The forms of life that in me dwells
That´s why I kill myself
That´s why I kill myself
Rest in peace but leave no trace
That´s why I kill myself

I die free, instead of living on my knees

Something here is pushing me
Something there is pulling me
I hate the way they´re pushing me
I hate the way they keep me down
Someone here is hailing me
Someone there is killing me
I don´t live to make you happy
I kill myself, cause I wanna be free