Madrid. - Expressions Lyrics

Music means everything to me
It was there for me when i was weak
Sometimes that means staying up late
Is this what it takes to be one of the greats
Working everyday to make mine a reality
While Skipping out on the profanity
I've been doing this forever its been hard
When you dream for the stars
You can only get so far
Taking time with every line
To me music is so divine
Didn't know what I was doing this for
I could've studied more
Tried putting my mind on advancing through the pain
But that was blocked by overthinking and all my complaining it all feels the same
I went from walking around town to letting off some steam
Now I'm putting all my thoughts into songs to accomplish a dream
I spend to much time putting everything off
Now I'm working on everything so a career takes off
Had to stop beating myself up inside
Instead I encourage myself to try
This is not an option I'm doing this tilI I die

My hopes starting to way thin
Put myself in a pin, temped by sin
Pouring this out is like a confession
Letting my heart air out every session
Devil keeps calling, I just kept stalling
Faded too often
Crowley couldn't bargain
Words could also be used as weapons
I use them to fight my demons
What do I say with my dying breathe
Deep down dodging them at different depths
Feeling like a Winchester in the flesh
Saw how you can heal through words
It helped me figure out what hurt
It was a fact I'd pursue rap
Didn't care how the people would react
As I get older the less I'm on my phone
I'm more comfortable being alone
Good thing I don't have to worry about that since I got engaged
This is my passion I never disengage
Some how I manage
With all this baggage
Things said put me close to the edge
I've been taking up too much space
Thinking am I in the right place
Watching my pace
In this rat race
Everyone is lost in a fantasy
Hardly are they facing reality
Feeling like the lords testing me
It's hard to keep my life balanced
But these things happen

I'm putting it all on the page
I'm not defined by my wage
It's getting easier with every breathe
I feel depression less with every step
Feel free as the wind blows
I can't tell you when I'll die, who knows
I'm scratching the surface
With these verses
Just another wordsmith
Lost looking for what's his
Getting scared of turbulence
I'm stuck in the past tense
It's been a hard couple of years
I was taking steps crossing over my fears
Getting distracted with fellow peers
I've been trying to finish songs
Left and right
It shouldn't have taken me this long
I've had plenty of time to write
I can't promise happiness is a certainty
I feel it more physically
Music for me has always been the remedy
She push's and pulls me back
Never wanting me to leave
Till she takes a piece of me
They say love is a drug
And that the release from it
Will have you wanting more
We're always looking for our next fix
Don't think life's unfair, it's no against you
I've gotta maintain my bridges
This what I practice and preach
Pass on a message for people to teach
I put all my life's work in a speech