Mari Sitzmann - What If Lyrics

I love my mom but I don't wanna be like her
I see my dad smoking cigarettes in the corner
Then they try to get out
Come to me with their doubts
And I'm fake I feel like a fool
And you
Want me to
Pick a side
But I can't choose
What if I fall
What if I lose
What if I get up again
And what if I choose
To stay down on the ground
While all these little thoughts in my head
Live with me instead
My little self in that old cassette camera
I hear her voice my narrator
Now I'm losing my mind
I only see through her eyes
And I'm ashamed
That I blame this on you
And I
Start to fake
Every move
That I make
What if I fall
What if I lose
What if I get up again and what if I choose
To stay down on the ground while all these little thoughts in my head
Live with me instead
All I ever do Is cry about it
All I ever do is say that I'm okay with whatever you do
I'm afraid of myself
I'm afraid of who I am without you
What if I fall
What if I lose
What if I get up again and what if I choose
To stay down on the ground while all these little thoughts in my head
Live with me instead