Mason Duran - Difficult Lyrics

I got some skeletons in my closet
And I don't know if no one knows
It so before they burn me to ashes
And pour it
I'ma just
Lock it and close it and toss up in the Ocean
I don't want nobody knowing how Vulnerable I can be
The inner workings of my M-I-N-D
Are for me myself and I
And I don't need no help cus I can Do bad
All on my own but ya knew that
Who the hell am I foolin'
Thinking I could
Blend in with the rest of these Humans when I know god damn
Well that I'm losing
Touch with reality
It really sucks to live in duality
One day I'm anchored to want to
Stay and the next I just really want To leave
Am I coming or going?
Shit
I don't even be knowing
Which direction I want to face when
He wind blowing got me tiptoeing
Waiting for some kinda big moment
With all eyes on me it got me feeling
Like I'm living in a centerfold
Got damn, why it gotta be
Why it gotta be so difficult?

Ooooh I wanna know I wanna know
Why the f*ck everything gotta be so Difficult
So difficult
I just can't figure out what's going on Inside
My mothaf*ckin mind
Damn near like half the time

I can't be the only one
I can't be the only one
I can't be the only one

Oh no no no
Oh no no no

Why it gotta be difficult?
Why it gotta be difficult?
Why it gotta be difficult?
Why it gotta be difficult?

Why every thing supposed bad
Feels so amazing?
Is it the thrill that I'm chasing?
Is it normal be on edge 24/7
And feel so impatient and anxious?
Waiting
For something to happen
But what is that something that I'm Lacking?
Did I ever have it?
And if I did when will I ever get it Back then?
Am I doomed to be in this endless
Cylcle of questions?
Stressing
Will I ever learn my lesson?
Feeelin like life is mess when
You don't know what's going on
Am I being tested?
There I go again
Confessin
Every last one of my
Insecurities
And personal problems
Sayin them aloud like a verse would Solved them
Knowing damn well it aint finna do Shit
All I really needa do is vent
Get it off my chest and Clear my Head a lil bit
Yeah
I know that it don't make sense
But I never had no I'll intent
And as of late I just wanna say
I ain't been feelin like I'm in my zone
So I hope you feel where I'm coming From when I tell you
When I tell you that Shits been Difficult

Shits been so difficult
God damn, so difficult
Oh man, so difficult
It's really been difficult
It's really been difficult
Swear to god it's been difficult
I really don't think you know
It's been so difficult
It's been so difficult
God damn, so difficult
Been so difficult for me
Why the f*ck can you not see?
It's been so difficult
I can't even f*cking sleep

I can't be the only one
I can't be the only one
I can't be the only one
I can't be the only one

So difficult
So difficult