Now that I'm sturdier, I can try
To put it into words and answer why
Those countless hours I wasted, day and night
To make myself feel empty inside
Empty and clean, surviving, unseen
He got away with it in the dark
How many more still carry his mark
And we push it down, we wash it away
As if we could lose invisible weight
Empty and clean, surviving unseen
And I started to wound myself
When I was too confused to ask for help
Looking for control, to find the crossed line
To take back my body as if it wasn't mine
Just a little girl on a trundle bed
When he took something from me because he could
But finally I know there's a boundary
And I know the difference between bad and good
Between can't and should and wish you would, so many moments misunderstood
Empty and clean, surviving unseen, empty and clean, I'm surviving, I am seen