MGRAYULTRA - Close Your Eyes Lyrics

My name
Is MGRAYULTRA
And this song is for those dealing with addiction
We do recover
It just takes persistance over perfection
I always think about
What could have been
The night my sister overdosed
I couldn't even comprehend
One minute you was fine just laying
Nodding on the bed
The moment you fell backwards and
Turned blue I knew that
You was dead
Immediately grabbed you and
We layed you on the floor
Aint know what the f*ck to do but
Try to save you
That's for sure
Ran and got the narcan
Hit you twice but
You ain't budge
Had eyes glazed over
Open, staring, looking up
I wrapped you up inside my arms and
Told you not to leave
Poured the water on your head and
Then you started to breath
I looked you in your eyes with
You looking back at me
And we all started to cry
I thought
Dam I got to get clean
How could I tell our parents, or
Your daughter, our grandmothers
That I killed you like
Yea she died shooting up wit her brother
Then to make it worse
As soon as I seen your straight
I ran and got the spoon and
Did the shit that you ain't take
I hated myself inside
And I still do
Up to this day
I hope that you can forgive me for
Involving you in my pain
I went o rehab to show you
We got to change
The devil lives in our veins and
Addiction is just his name