Mic Brim - No (feat. Zoey Lavell) Lyrics

When you'd rather suffer through hope
Than suffer through growth
No one hurts you more
Than you
This will not appeal
If you're not for real
About the role that you play when you got to heal
To attract the kind of energy you're trying to feel
To be the architect of what you're trying to build
I learned correction
From people who never bothered with discretion
So pardon me for questioning
You targeting progression
When you're starting at a dead end
It's hard to get ahead when
You go hard in a direction
Where the options are get stuck
Or turn around
Or burn it down
When you can just be smart with who you let in
I'm just sharing the art of introspection
Cause you should never be comfortable only in the dark with your reflection
Enlighten yourself
Understand this is less about you
And much more an indictment of self
I spent so many of years hyping myself
Over actions that actually
Had to be
Sad to see
It was folk who opted for the service and they had to leave
It was folk who continued with school and now they had degrees
I was still bumming it at my momma's house at 24
Couldn't even take care of myself and yet a dad to be
I wanted to lie
But fear forced out the truth
The bed that I made wasn't at all where I wanted to lie
I wanted the perks
Not the relationship
Wanted to be called daddy
Not to babysit
Wanted to keep being reckless and get away with it
Wanted to take the risk
Without having to weigh the risk
Wasn't ready to stop
Wasn't even ready to slow down
Wasn't ready to detour
Let's be sure
That we're making this
Decision for the both of us
But me more
Cause trust me
It feels like we'd be lucky
To last a week more
But I ain't convinced
Was too entitled to own it
I was living life in the moment
And the way that I reluctantly accept it
Foreshadowed how ugly things were set to get
Was nothing we connected with
Was physically attracted just enough to seem affectionate
But not to be healthy
That was enough for me to question it
Yeah
It was out of my hands
She had her heart set
But keeping me from being a dog
That was farfetched
As if I needed an excuse to be
Was usually
Just a hazard of choosing me
That's why so many people were confused to see
The growth when I moved on
They couldn't tell which version was my true form
The answer was both
And that's what I was wrestling with
Was evident
That I had been doing wrong
For too long
So all skepticism was just
I had the plight of this
Devil on my shoulder whispering bad advice
One step to the left
Threw out my commitment to acting right
Sometimes it's a struggle that my wife
And I ain't that alike
She just wants to have a life
She just wants to pack her life
And grab a flight
And travel like
There's no tomorrow
I'm cool where we're at tonight
But half the fight is
Bridging the gap just like a team
Sometimes through compromise
Sometimes you need to sacrifice
Choice can crippling or liberating
So I get it when folks get lost in their situation
I just ain't the one to be participating
In denial
You're going to have get it now
Before you reach the point where ain't no way for you to live it down
Especially when you when you go out of your way to say you're different how
You don't want to stick around
Feeling like you're Waldo
Then discover that you're just another face in crowd
Who you gonna blame then
The same friends
Who tried to warn you about repeating the same trends
The relationships that you know you shouldn't have stayed in
All the people who shouldn't have even made it in
Spoiler Alert
It ain't them