One more bite
Then i'm done
No it's fine, I had like a whole plate of anxiety right before this
I've been full
Since I got here
Skip the alarms, i'll turn em off
And ignore my body
Til my stomach starts to cough
Wonder if you heard
Wonder if you care I haven't eaten since I notice people stare
One more night
Then i'll order in
Put nothing first except my need for love and self medication
I've been fine
Since I got here
I won't talk at all with my headphones on
I'll make it easier and blend into the wall
Wonder if you saw
Wonder if I care i'm only needed when nobody else is there
Is it my fault
I'm not eating?
Is it my fault
I'm still sleeping in all day?
I keep it dark so it's not day
I haven't had a day in so long
(So long, so long)
(So long, so long)
In so long
(So long, so long)
And I lay in silence
One more bite
Then no more for me
I'm full on oranges and lemon juice and everything bad for me
I'm full, so full
No, I swear I am
I'll stand on the scale if you ask again and
I'll pretend like there's really something there
You won't see i'm scared
All this weight as it turns out is just the air that I inhale
One more night
Just take away my phone
I see myself in this black screen but don't see anything looking back at me
Just time
That's all I need
I'll blame myself, not this ED, and then they'll see
I don't need therapy
I'll just be me
If I could just wake up from what feels like some other body
Is It my fault
I'm not eating?
Is it my fault
I'm still sleeping in all day?
I keep it dark so it's not day
I haven't had a day
Things are alright
When I'm sleeping
Life is so bright
When I'm dreaming and I play
I eat and talk and sing all day
I'd rather wish and hope and dream
Block out the trees so I can sleep
Keep out the day so it stays dark
And dream that I've still got that spark
For so long