Mood - Mask Lyrics

Woke up today i was in instant pain
Look at my face and it would not give it away
Ask me how my day is I'll smile and say that it's great
Easier to play a charade then really give it straight
I start to fade when i look into my picture frame
It's not okay but i'll deal with it another day
I fantasize cause it's my only true escape
The man inside won't come i made a new mistake
I look in the mirror
It hasn't been clear for years
I'm not who i appear
I can't break this mask my dear
I look in the mirror
It hasn't been clear for years
I'm not who i appear
I can't break this mask my dear
Tired of work yet I'm barely working
Tired of time the hands are not turning
Tired of love its my only purpose
Tired of hate can't you see I'm hurting
Look deep enough you can see pain in my eyes
I'm not keeping up all my life i've been behind
Don't speak enough so it maintains in my mind
Even sleep is rough i can't function most the time
Look in the mirror
Not who I appear
Can't make it out
Of here
Look around me feels like everyone will judge
Wish I could down it wish I didn't give a f*ck
But I'm surrounded in my head there isn't love
Yet I'm not frowning guess I'll never show whats up
At a stage where I think about going numb
Then my friends and families faces give a nudge
Sulking in yourself functions like a drug
But if you hate yourself why not pull the plug
I look in the mirror
It hasn't been clear for years
I'm not who i appear
I can't break this mask my dear
I look in the mirror
It hasn't been clear for years
I'm not who i appear
I can't break this mask my dear
Even if i told you tell me what would you do
We would talk until it's out then it would conclude
I'm not trying to come off as the least bit rude
But it always comes back and puts me in a mood
You can say whatever it won't convince myself
Wish I could be better wish i could f*cking tell
But i can't so now all i got's a wishing well
So show yourself out I'm gonna sit and dwell