Mxrc Clxrk - Alamort (Adv.) Lyrics

Life is a contradiction
I'm in need of an intermissions
Prepare for my intervention
Close your eyes and be my witness
Sign this it's for your permission
I'm sick and twisted
Demented constricted by bad decision
Hate this life I'm living
It's all your perception
They say your life is a blessing
These cards are filled with depression
Can my death be your lesson
If so hand me a blessing
Your life is your profession
Alamort, Alamort

Can't describe this pain that I'm feeling
You ever Dealt with addiction
Pain and affliction
While taking prescriptions
I'm feeling conflicted
With a gun to my temple
My Bills overdue, I'm in need of plenty
I'm feeling empty
Surrounded envy
The Problem me I'm my biggest enemy
Depression I'm fighting losing myself
While reading bible
Thinking of Eiffel
Feeling stifled
By the system
F*ck playing the victim
I gotta go get it
I gotta go get it
I'm gone I'm gone
To these life lessons
My heart is in question
My death is your blessing
I f*ck hate my reflection
Been plotting my demise since I was 5
Self-inflicted hate since I was 8
Now I'm 25 and I'm barely alive

God what's the definition of life
I'm 25 living my life
Feeling like I'm living to die
Dying at a desk why survive
Damn my homie got life in jail
Man this damn world feel like hell
I was told blacks won't prevail
So we steal and rob blasting at the cops
Homie on the blocks
Mama smoking rocks
Brothers getting shot
We was given crack nigga f*ck a job
This our life this our life this our life
Heat bussin, cold winters
Grandma why should I give it to God
He made my life so hard
I'm speaking from reality
Alot of things just baffle me