Myrts Son - Jihad Lyrics

Bissmiallh I'm just trying to be the greater me
Living in hell, I'm just trying to find my inner peace
Imma God but before I can pray to me
Imma really have to master my Inner G

I just want to be peaceful and watch my kids grow
Master my imperfections and conquer the globe
Inside of me, til i expand to the universe
But first imma have to release this hurt
Got to cry it out , got to fight it out
Got to show this darkness what I'm all about
I lost my mama and brother in the same year
No need to wonder why dying has become a fear
My immediate family is now gone
Pops died, and my sister, that's a different song
It took me a whole year to express my feelings
Lonely as a motherf*cker and nobody feels me
Depression is some shit, that only one can stand
And I appreciate the love, but no helping hand
Can find me peace in this fire, I'm the only man
That can live this life, and have a fighting chance
I just finished my spliff, I'm walking from the cliff
I will not be jumping today, I'm at my lift
Imma rise, just as soon as I figure how
Imma king, but please wait before you take your bow

Bissmiallh I'm just trying to be the greater me
Living in hell, I'm just trying to find my inner peace
Imma God but before I can pray to me
Imma really have to master my Inner G

Smoking my herb, getting lost in the starred skies
The depths of this shit, caught a G by surprise
We only live an instant, but our soul is infinite
So I contemplate our reasons for existence
The look in my moms eyes the night before she passed
The same look in her eyes the night my brother passed
The hurt in her eyes, that shit keep me up at night
Brain full of melancholy, heart is full of fight
Doing what I got to do, to escape this plight
This shit pulling at me, tug of war, I'm losing life
I got a strong support cast, but it ain't enough
Looking for paradise in the smoke of my blunt
I hope I find it cause my well being f*cked up
Fell in love with a queen, I thought that I had lucked up
But she just want to be friends, Biz Markie
What did she see, when she say she saw the king in me
I'm too damaged to be anybody side kick
And she to perfect to be used as a side chick
To these demons I'm facing
And the contemplations of these self conversations proceed mediation

Bissmiallh I'm just trying to be the greater me
Living in hell, I'm just trying to find my inner peace
Imma God but before I can pray to me
Imma really have to master my Inner G