You Had Your Soul with You
You had your soul with you
I was in no mood
Drift away, and I could forget
I had only one last feather left
I wore it on the island of my head
I had only one thing to do
And I couldn't do it yet
You felt like heaven stood up with you
You said love fills you up
It moves you from the scattered sin and pulls you around
I got it worse than anyone else
And I just can't find a way to forgive myself
I had only one thing left
And I couldn't see it yet
I have ordered to my heart every word I've said
You have no idea how hard I died when you left
If I yield to my trances
Will I get up close again?
I had only one thing to do
And I couldn't do it yet
I had only one thing left
And I couldn't see it yet
You had your soul with you
I was in no mood
You had your soul with you
I was in no mood
Quiet Light
I used to fall asleep to you talking to me
I don't listen to anything now
Nothing to do with us
I'm just so tired of thinkin' about everything
I'm not afraid of being alone
I just don't know what to do with my time
Between you and me
I thought it would all last a little while longer
But I'm learning to lie here in the quiet light
While I watch the sky go from black to gray
Learning how not to die inside a little
Every time I think about you and wonder if you are awake
You don't know anything
I think about you way more than anything else
I'm not that spiritual, I still go out all the time
To department stores
Everything I need, but none of this is getting me anywhere good
Between you and me
I still fall apart at the thought of your voice
But I'm learning to lie here in the quiet light
While I watch the sky go from black to gray
Learning how not to die inside a little
Every time I think about you and wonder if you are awake
And I'm learning to live without the heartache it gives me
Nothing I wouldn't do for another few minutes
Learning how not to cry
Every time there's another sad unbearable morning
But sometimes there's nothing I can do
I can't help it
It's you that I think I hear in the quiet light
Am I crazy?
You're nowhere near me
Guess I don't know what I'm saying
Just call me
I'll come to where you are
Alone in the quiet light
I'm always thinking you're behind me
And I turn around and you're always there
But I'm learning to lie here in the quiet light
While I watch the sky go from black to gray
Learning how not to die inside a little
Every time I think about you and wonder if you are awake
And I'm learning to live without the heartache it gives me
Nothing I wouldn't do for another few minutes
Learning how not to cry
Every time there's another sad unbearable morning
But sometimes there's nothing I can do
Roman Holiday
I'm your hospital, I'm your silver cross
Tell me what to be, tell me how to talk
Patti wasn't lonely, Robert wasn't lost
Put me on the rope, take me for a walk
Roman holiday
Every time it rains
Roman holiday
I'll take away your shame
I'm not afraid to tell you, what I want
I'm not afraid of anything, I want it all
Never leave me out here for too long
Put me in your movie, pin me to your wall
Roman holiday
Every time it rains
Roman holiday
We're all rainy anyway
She said, "Please
Think the best of him
Please
Think the best of me"
There are police
In the museum
Roman holiday
Every time it rains
Roman holiday
We don't feel the pain
She said, "Please
Think the best of him
Please
Think the best of me"
There are police
In the museum
She said, "Please"
Oblivions
It's almost like you're not afraid of anything I do
How I want you here
You don't know what it's like to be around you
I still got my fear
It's the way you say yes when I ask you to marry me
You don't know what you are doing
Do you think you can carry me
Over the threshold
Over and over again until oblivion?
It's the way that you're gonna stop needing to tell me
You want me as much as I want you to tell me
I'm over the threshold
Everything is gonna be totally okay until oblivion
I still got my fear
I still got my fear
It's still always you every morning I think of no matter what
How I want you here
I know I am easy to find but you know, it's never me
I still got my fears
It's like a tide in a city lifts me and carries me around
And oh, my mind is made up out of nothing, now
If nothing scares you about me and you, never put me down
Oh my mind is made up out of nothing, now
You won't walk away, won't you?
You don't walk away, don't you?
You won't walk away, won't you?
You don't walk away, don't you?
I still got my fear
I still got my fear
I still got my fear
I still got my fear
The Pull of You
Something's leaving me behind
It's just a feeling in my mind
What was it you always said?
We're connected by a thread
If we're ever far apart
I'll still feel the pull of you
I know, I get it
I'm either at the bottom of a well
Or spinning into somebody's outdoor glass furniture
Is this how I lose it?
Everything at once?
Carried to space by a dolphin balloon?
Whatever magical thinking you need to hang around your neck, right?
Maybe we'll end up the ones eating chocolate chip pancakes next to a charity swimming pool
The next time I see you will probably be in some quote, unquote, "Upscale tropical funeral"
I dreamed that's what Nina Simone said to her lover-
Maybe we'll talk it out inside a car
With rain falling around us
We all know this rain is hard to take
I know I can get attached and then unattached
To my own versions of others
My view of you comes back and drops away
Just that I'm still here
And there's still everything you don't know
Oh, how often I dream about you
You don't know how I need you
You got me all wrong
If I said I was sorry for always being underwater, would you stay?
You can take me
There's no difference between you and me
Tell me what you would say if I said that to you
I get you, you're not like anyone
Do you hear me? Just be here
Don't let me get in the way of you finding everything
What was it? The story you told me?
Why am I so hard to be around?
Here at the approach of the end of everything
Sometimes I don't think I'm really around here half the time
Sometimes I don't think I'm really around here at all
Sometimes I don't think I'm really around here half the time
Sometimes I don't think I'm really around here at all
Something's leaving me behind
It's just a feeling in my mind
What was is it you always said?
We're connected by a thread
If we ever get far apart
I'll still feel the pull of you
Hey Rosey
I'm your angel when it rains, dear
Heaven picks the place
I'm a child in that way, dear
Please do it again
Hey Rosey, I think I know just what the feeling is
I was hoping you wouldn't see me like this
I hate to fall before your feet again
I'm the rocks they weigh down the angels with
Help me see, it won't always be like this
Hey Rosey, I think I know just what the feeling is
Hey Rosey, I think I know just what the feeling is
You said you got to let me escape myself
You said I don't know how not to want something else
If I held your hand again
Would you be here down on your knees like this?
Hey Rosey, I think I know just what the feeling is
Hey Rosey, I think I know just what the feeling is
I will love you like there's razors in it
And she'll love you like a radiant flame
There's never really any safety in it
Please do it again
There's never really any safety in it
I Am Easy to Find
How long have we been here?
Am I ever coming down?
I need to find some lower thinking
If I'm gonna stick around
I'm not going anywhere
Who do I think I'm kidding?
I'm still standing in the same place
Where you left me standing
I am easy to find
Towers to the skies
An academy of lies
You never were much of a New Yorker
It wasn't in your eyes
If you ever come around
This way again, you'll see me
Standing in the sunlight
In the middle of the street
I am easy to find
I am easy to find
There's a million little battles that I'm never gonna win, anyway
I'm still waiting for you every night with ticker tape, ticker tape
There's a million little battles that I'm never gonna win, anyway
I'm still waiting for you every night with ticker tape, ticker tape
I am easy to find
I am easy to find
There's a million little battles that I'm never gonna win, anyway
I'm still waiting for you every night with ticker tape, ticker tape
There's a million little battles that I'm never gonna win, anyway
I'm still waiting for you every night with ticker tape, ticker tape
Her Father in the Pool
[Instrumental]
Where Is Her Head
Is she outside?
Is she looking out?
Is she standing up?
Where are her hands?
Where are her eyes?
Where are her feet?
Where's her head?
Is she outside?
Is she looking out?
Is she standing up?
Where are her hands?
Where are her eyes?
Where is her head?
Is she looking out?
Is she standing up?
Where are her hands?
Where are her eyes?
Where are her feet?
Where is her head?
Is she outside?
Is she looking out?
Is she standing up?
Where are her hands?
Where are her eyes?
Where is her head?
What is she thinking?
Is she sleeping?
What did she say?
Is she looking out?
Is she standing up?
Where are her hands?
Where are her eyes?
Where is her head?
Is she looking out?
Is she sleeping?
I think I'm hittin' a wall
I hate loving you as much as I do
I think I'm runnin' away
The dark storm you bring
I can't take another day
I think I'm hittin' a wall
I think I'm hittin' a wall (is she outside?)
I hate my looks, I hate 'em all (is she looking out?)
I think I'm runnin' away (is she standing up?)
The storm you bring
Can't take another day (where are her hands?)
I think I'm hittin' a wall (where are her eyes?)
I think I'm hittin' a wall (where are her feet?)
I hate loving you as much as I do (where's her head?)
I think I'm runnin' away (is she outside?)
I think I'm runnin' away
I think I hate my looks (is she looking out?)
I hate them all (is she standing up?)
I think I'm hittin' a wall
I think I'm hittin' a wall (where are her hands?)
Where are her eyes?
Where is her head?
What is she thinking?
Is she sleeping?
Where are her hands? Where are her eyes? (And I will not come back the same)
Where is her head?
What is she thinking?
Is she sleeping?
(And I will not come back the same) What'd she say?
Where are her eyes? Where is her head? (And I will not come back the same)
What is she thinking?
Is she sleeping?
What'd she say? Is she going out? (And I will not come back the same)
Is she looking out?
Is she standing up?
Where are her hands?
Where are her eyes?
Where are her feet?
Where is her head?
Is she outside?
Is she looking out?
Is she standing up?
Where are her hands?
Where are her eyes?
Where is her head?
What is she thinking?
Is she sleeping?
What did she say?
Is she going out?
Is she going out?
Is she going out?
Not in Kansas
I am not in Kansas
I can't slow down and I can't stand it
Broadcast News into Hallelujah
Hanne Darboven had a great idea
Make a list, write it down
Shave your head, draw a crown
Move back home with mom and dad
The pool is drained and they are not there
My bedroom is a stranger's gunroom
Ohio's in a downward spiral
I can't go back there anymore
Since alt-right opium went viral
I am not in Kansas
Where I am, I don't know where
Take me for a walk and blame this
On the water dripping off the spear
You even get to wear a dress
And feed his flesh to wayward daughters
Everyone is so impressed
Teachers, neighbors, mothers, fathers
First Testament was really great
The sequel was incredible
Like the Godfathers of the first two strokes
Every document's indelible
Infidels and Heartbreak Beats
Smidges of bad ecstasy
I must have left it in my pocket
With my Christianity in my rocket
I'm binging hard on Annette Bening
I'm listening to R.E.m. Again
Begin The Begin, over and over
Begin The Begin, over and over
I am not in Kansas
Where I am, I don't know where
Take me for a walk and blame this
On the water dripping off the spear
If the sadness of life makes you tired
And the failures of man make you sigh
You can look to the time soon arriving
When this noble experiment winds down and calls it a day
My shadow's getting shorter
I'm a child at the border
Oh, godmother you can't ignore us
There isn't anybody else left to love us
I wanted you when I was a child
I raked the leaves and I started fires
Now I'm reading whatever you give me
It's half your fault so half-forgive me
I'm way behind in reflex math
Biphasic sleepless emotional crashes
Two days into one, shove 'em together
I always wake up way before the weather
My mother needs an army
But I'm leaving home and I'm scared that I won't
Have the balls to punch a Nazi
Father, what is wrong with me?
I am not in Kansas
Where I am, I don't know where
Take me for a walk and blame this
On the water dripping off the spear
Oil droppers, rubber gloves
I raked the leaves, I lit 'em up
I read whatever it is you give me
It's half your fault so half-forgive me
At the real Neil Armstrong taught me
To play cutthroat at my Aunt Angela's house
While my real dad's skate got caught in the ice
And he drove us home with a spiral fracture
It was then I was enlightened
Roberta Flack the whole way home
I was entirely unfrightened
Dozing off and eternally unalone
The flowers cover over everything
They cover over everything
The flowers cover over everything
I am not in Kansas
Where I am, I don't know where
Take me for a walk and blame this
On the water dripping off the spear
Time has come now to stop being human
Time to find a new creature to be
Be a fish or a weed or a sparrow
For the Earth has grown tired and all of your time has expired
Oh, the gardens are sprouting with flowers
All the tree-tops are bursting with birds
And the people all know that it's over
They lay down their airs and they hang up their tiresome words
So Far So Fast
Lay down in the doorway in front of me
Make yourself impossible for me to leave
I remember a kid in the water, I remember a world on fire
I was just comin' out of it, it was so hot all summer
I get so far, so fast
I get so far, so fast
The storm, the blackout, the quiet sea
You went running right into it, away from me
We have friends in good houses, we have kids in the trees
Now I have nothing but sleepless nights, about everything
I get so far, so fast
I get so far, so fast
Don't you know someday, somebody will come and find you?
If you don't know who you are anymore, they will remind you
We don't see you around here anymore, it's okay
I will say your name out loud, and you will be home
There are so many things that drive me crazy
What you think I am, it's never been me
Hearing you talk always saves me
Can you get away and talk to me?
I get so far, so fast
I get so far, so fast
I get so far, so fast
Dust Swirls in Strange Light
Her father's voice
Her mother's heartbeat
The orange color inside her eyelids
The sunlight on her skin
Dust swirls in strange light
The feeling of the rug on her body
The hum from the speakers
She learns how to lie
Her father's voice
Her mother's heartbeat
The orange color inside her eyelids
The sunlight on her skin
Dust swirls in strange light
The feeling of the rug on her body
The hum from the speakers
She learns how to lie
She learns how to lie
She learns how to lie
She learns
The feeling of anger
The end of her street
Time in buildings
Time in cars
Could she run forever?
Could she run forever?
Dust swirls in strange light
Dust swirls in strange light
Dust swirls in strange light
Dust swirls in strange light
Dust swirls in strange light
Hairpin Turns
I liked the old way, I thought
I was hanging in there
You held back the worst rain
From my shoulders then
What are we going through, you and me?
Every other house on the street's burnin'
What are we going through, wait and see
Days of brutalism and hairpin turns
Your nervous throat clicks
And my spirit swims right to the hook
You go quiet and leave me
In the wake of a terrifying look
What are we going through, you and me?
What is it you want me to be learning?
We're always arguing about the same things
Days of brutalism and hairpin turns
Say it like I was right
In the room there (and I'll)
Say it like your head was
(Keep my eyes open) on my shoulder
What are we going through, you and me?
Every other house on the street's burnin'
What are we going through, wait and see
Days of brutalism and hairpin turns
What are we going through, you and me?
What is it you want me to be learning?
We're always arguing about the same things
Days of brutalism and hairpin turns
And I'll keep my eyes open
And I'll keep my eyes open
Rylan
Rylan, you should try to get some sun
You remind me of everyone
Rylan, did you break your mother's heart?
Every time you tried to play your part
Is it easy to keep so quiet?
Everybody loves a quiet child
Underwater you're almost free
If you wanna be alone, come with me
Rylan, we can take the quick way out
You can turn blank-white in a blank-white house
Say that you're a pervert, you're a vulture
Don't you wanna be popular culture?
Is it easy to keep so quiet?
Everybody loves a quiet child
Underwater you're almost free
If you wanna be alone, come with me
Is it easy to live inside yourself?
All the little kids are high and hazy
Everybody got nowhere to go
Everybody wants to be amazing
Rylan, California's rotten
Dress light-blue to be forgotten
Eat your pearls on Sunday morning
Keep your conversations boring
Stay with me among the strangers
Change your mind and nothing changes
Don't let show any emotion
When you climb into the ocean
Rylan, you should try to get some sun
There's a little bit of hell in everyone
Rylan, you should try to get some sun
You remind me of everyone
Rylan, you should try to get some sun
There's a little bit of hell in everyone
Rylan, you should try to get some sun
Underwater
[Instrumental]
Light Years
You were waiting outside for me in the sun
Laying down to soak it all in before we had to run
I was always ten feet behind you from the start
Didn't know you were gone 'til we were in the car
Oh, the glory of it all was lost on me
'Til I saw how hard it'd be to reach you
And I would always be light years, light years away from you
Light years, light years away from you
I thought I saw your mother last weekend in the park
It could've been anybody, it was after dark
Everyone was lighting up in the shadows alone
You could've been right there next to me, and I'd have never known
Oh, the glory of it all was lost on me
'Til I saw how hard it'd be to reach you
And I would always be light years, light years away from you
Light years, light years away from you
Light years, light years away from you
Light years, light years away from you