Nahkeem - Changes Lyrics

I've been going through the motions, Learning how to pretend, Like everything is perfect
And I've been, Sinking in an ocean, Drowning but I'm silent, Yet everyone thinks I'm afloat
I'm going through changes, But I swear I'm the same (Aye it's NTD)
Could you show me some patience, Along the way?
I'm going through changes, But I swear I'm the same
Could you show me some mercy (Are y'all really listening?), If I started to stray?
Sometimes it get lonely, Never thought nobody be checking on me (I never, never)
At the top, Wish somebody would've told me, That it gets easier (I wish)
Only call when they need me for a favor, Only call when they need me for some paper
Why do I feel like I'm everybody's savior?, Like my people getting greedier (Like my people getting greedier)
I'm going through changes, I'm going through thangs (Going through thangs)
I need your love and your loyalty (I do), Along the way (Along the way)
I'm going through phases, Kinda hard to explain (It's hard)
Would you treat me so different (Would you?), If I wasn't the same? (If I wasn't the same)
I'm just maturin', Spreadin' my wings just like a butterfly
Ain't been the same since the age of 16, That's when I seen my brudda die
Other than that, Only time I got emotional, Seein' my mother cry
Sleep is the only thing help me get through it, And my music my lullaby
Write a little sum', Then hop in a booth, It's like I'm goin' to therapy
Even with no one to talk or listen to, The music right there with me
Remember that time I hit rock bottom, I had no one to take care of me
I ain't even think about hittin' my paps for help, The shit would embarrass me
(F*ck)
I ain't want all of my people, Lookin' at me like a charity
It's people that look up to me, The thought of them lookin' down at me was scaring me
In a weird way, It's like I was blind, But I was lookin' for clarity
It's crazy how times wasn't always like this... Well, Not necessarily
It was a time, I was on top of the world, Man of my people
Giving, When truthfully, I ain't even got it, I know this shit get lethal
But I learned some people was taking advantage, How could they be so evil?
They only love what you can do for 'em, Not you and it should be illegal
(It's crazy)
Sometimes it get lonely, Never thought nobody be checking on me (I never, never)
At the top, Wish somebody would've told me, That it gets easier (I wish)
Only call when they need me for a favor, Only call when they need me for some paper
Why do I feel like I'm everybody's savior?, Like my people getting greedier (Like my people getting greedier)
I'm going through changes, I'm going through thangs (Going through thangs)
I need your love and your loyalty (I do), Along the way (Along the way)
I'm going through phases, Kinda hard to explain (It's hard)
Would you treat me so different (Would you?), If I wasn't the same? (If I wasn't the same)