Thinking Too Hard Video (MV)

I'm walking on a thin line
Pencil strokes thin pretending I'm fine
But so close to blowing
Like a volcano's lava flowing
My path is undetermined
Everything I touch breaks
Real friends turn to fakes
Traveling through a jungle the land of snakes
Life ain't acting there's only one take
I get up every day but I never do awake
Living through years each new with a different cake
I'm grew up eating off different plates
Everything I chase seems worse and worse gaining bad taste
Every path I could go seems like a bad fate
So much weight on my chest
Every night I sleep but never rest
Life's a constant test
Seems like to my friends I'm just a little pest
And I'm being swat at
Hoping I get caught in a trap
Once inside there's no looking back
With no eyes in the back of my head
To do the work for me instead
So I lay down in bed
Knowing nothing can come from behind me
But the knife stabs from below inside me
Running from devils but they always seem to find me

I can say right now it's really tough for me
This positivity doesn't come in abundancy
I'm just lucky to have this as a luxury
All these people lookin up because they're under me
I can say right now it's really tough for me
This positivity doesn't come in abundancy
I'm just lucky to have this as a luxury
All these people lookin up because they're under me

I apologize to everyone I've just been going through it
All my decisions and actions recently have been confusing
I had a huge opportunity and almost blew it
But I knew I made a mistake and couldn't undo it
I'm really not a bad person honestly
I just make the wrong moves thinking unconsciously
I realize now quality over quanity
Can't have everything great that's why there is no equality
My heart's been living in poverty
Beat slow velocity
Because nobody's pumping it properly
I regret some stuff that I've done
Grew up too fast and I miss being young
Tough to keep going running on a collapsed lung
Wood blocks and gallows thoughts of getting hung
I experience bad stuff and reciprocate
For what? To intimidate?
People lie to me talking bout they can relate
You know nothing about the burden of my mental weight
Acting like you care but not asking for updates
Do see how it can frustrate
Mental collapses wanna press detonate
Running out of words can't articulate
Not sure about my physchological state?
Don't fake empathy if you don't communicate
My brain feeds off of pain
Pressure seeming hard to sustain
Brain storm ideas? This is a hurricane
Push me to the edge and I'm going insane
Stay in your lane
Losing all consciousness before reaching fame

I can say right now it's really tough for me
This positivity doesn't come in abundancy
I'm just lucky to have this as a luxury
All these people lookin up because they're under me
I can say right now it's really tough for me
This positivity doesn't come in abundancy
I'm just lucky to have this as a luxury
All these people lookin up because they're under me