Nevik - Better Days Lyrics

ThaRealNevik
As days keep passing its getting harder
To keep a positive mind
I just keep on laughing
Hide the emotions i store throughout my days
Got suicidal thoughts
But still pray for them better days
Everyday look up in the sky and ask god why
I have to live this way
Getting tired of all this pain
I think i need a break cause my mind is going insane
They said god gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers
But I feel been suicidal and these days getting colder
These tests were made to keep me humble but I've been feeling jaded with humanity
Why do I always struggle
Will pain in my heart ever go away?
If it isn't I rather leave earth today
They tell me not to take the easy way out
But this ain't easy these f*cken demons calling my name out loud
They seem to never want to leave
But deep inside I don't either
Would I be me
If they weren't always under my sleeve
Always there when I grieve
That's why I only find peace when their always next to me
I know that ima die this way
But I never let anyone control me till the day that I decayed
All Them Rainy days wishing for better days
Lord I hope you wipe all this pain away
As days keep passing its getting harder
To keep a positive mind
I just keep on laughing
Hide the emotions i store throughout my days
Got suicidal thoughts
But still pray for them better days
Everyday look up in the sky and ask god why
I have to live this way
Getting tired of all this pain
I think I need a break cause my mind is going insane
Will I ever stop visiting love one's murder scenes
Cause this f*cks with a young boys mind
Seeing the things that I have seen
All the funerals I attended by sixteen
Most of my boys didn't get to reach the age of eighteen
All of their mothers crying and ill be lying if I said tears didn't fall down my eyes
Will it be my mother crying next?
Or will I be carrying more of my boy's coffins where they will rest
Thought the family would get closer
But all this sadness inside makes it hard to keep our composure
We barely even sober drinking liquor all day just to find closure
Too much pride to go and cry on someone's shoulder
I act like I'm fine but deep inside I'm dying
I want to give up trying and say I'm done with life
But I can't so I sit alone
In the Rain with locs to hide the tears wishing for better days
As days keep passing its getting harder
To keep a positive mind
I just keep on laughing
Hide the emotions i store throughout my days
Got suicidal thoughts
But still pray for them better days
Everyday look up in the sky and ask god why
I have to live this way
Getting tired of all this pain
I think i need a break cause my mind is going insane