Nicholas Mendez - Dear Pops, Lyrics

You too afraid to watch me grow up man
You too afraid to see me better off than you my mans
The strength that you seen in my momma
It's deep within me
I mean when they say I'm 50/50
That shit don't sit wit' me
Thanks for the damage and the extra leg
Here's a ten
Take your last name and sign these
I remind me to find ease and give moms nothing less than 90
Not me, two, three, for but five
And two incredibly strong women you left behind
And I find that in time I'm gonna wind up, being
A better father, better man, better human being
For the reason uh using my life toward a bigger meanin'
Not no selfish reason
Son but the pussy good
Out by the strap something only a pussy could
Now that's something I know I neva would
Imma give my children everything I neva had
That better be understood

You had the power and now you don't
You killed your power when you went broke
You had a place and now you don't
All respect for you went out in smoke

To Understand I never had and for that I have a plan
Never let my child feel the pain that I had
No
Little Nick at his desk taking a test
With all this pain in his chest
Wrote it down on the page
Words he could neva say
Out loud but found it within him to say
Everything buried so deep down that he thought would never see the light of day
They made him feel okay
That the pain came from a place
Breaded with hate for his father
Who could never see another fate
Thinking people in world could neva relate
Afraid Id share his poor mind state and maybe his fate
Cuz I looked like him
Damn I felt like him
Hoped I'm not like him
Mom made me feel like him
To myself at 9 I made a promise
Always deny this and
Remember only God designed us
Yup

You had the power and now you don't
You killed your power when you went broke
You had a place and now you don't
All respect for you went out in smoke