Hard to Sleep Video (MV)

I've had a life it's been
Weird
There's a lot I've seen
A lotta different scenes
But none of it really made things
Clear
Jumped on the drums in my teens
Realised what I liked had dreams
Now Im coming with the bars
Spitting better than Bart
And expressing my perspective
Where shall we start?
Hmm
Well I never wanna rap
About my life story
If I did it would boring
But maybe I should try exploring
Ways to prevent it being corny
I got a lot on my chest
So while I'll always project
For now I just express myself
Cus I'm still learning to accept
This mess
I find it hard to sleep
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
I know I can't just keep
On living like I've been
Is somebody to blame?
Im just needing a change, needing a change
And no i can't contain
No more I tried and failed
I tried to be the nicest
Now that ship has sailed
Ive gone off the rails
I gotta get back on the trail
Just need to inhale
(Exhale)
So on with rhymes bout life
Struggles can make a man wise
I wouldn't say I'm wise
Looking round my small room
What a state but, I suppose I should be grateful
Many mistakes were made
Man I've had greater days
But Ive found something I'm gonna stick to
This dude
Is Spitting bitter lyrics
If I never hit it big
Never quitting
Til I'm critically ill, and didn't even do a will
Cus I was busy writing my rhymes
For the last time
If it wasnt a career
I'll die with pride I kept a pastime
Through all the hard times
And the good, I'll document it all
For when I fall
I can see how well I once stood
So, yo
I find it hard to sleep
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
I know I can't just keep
On living like I've been
Is somebody to blame?
Im just needing a change, needing a change
And no i can't contain
No more I tried and failed
I tried to be the nicest
Now that ship has sailed
Ive gone off the rails
I gotta get back on the trail
Just need to inhale
(Exhale)
There's a light at the end
Of all tunnels
But there isn't a map
And that is the trouble
But at least I'm aware
I shouldn't be scared
Gaining knowledge is a must
If I wanna be prepared, so
Gettin back to basics
Don't wanna trade places
Ill make what I got
Its goddamn greatest
Knowing that I'm in and out
Of these creative phases?
I keep coming back
So many many pages
Forgotten better bars
Than the ones you wrote
Got many better flows
I can switch, you dont
If I toke then i cope
Youll choke on the smoke
As I roll that dope in hope
I find it hard to sleep
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
I know I can't just keep
On living like I've been
Is somebody to blame?
Im just needing a change, needing a change
And no i can't contain
No more I tried and failed
I tried to be the nicest
Now that ship has sailed
Ive gone off the rails
Gotta get back on the trail
Just need to inhale
(Exhale)
I find it hard to sleep
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
I know I can't just keep
On living like I've been
Is somebody to blame?
Im just needing a change, needing a change
And no i can't contain
No more I tried and failed
I tried to be the nicest
Now that ship has sailed
Ive gone off the rails
Gotta get back on the trail
Just need to inhale
(Exhale)