No Last Chances - Nurturing Abuse Lyrics

This time its
Hard to deny
Everything you did to me
The constant bruising and bleeding

You relentlessly
Put me through all this hate
And then I sit and wait
For the weight of the burdens
You will create

But the weight sitting
On your shoulders
Sits like a ghost

You put your pain on others
Like the burdens you let engulf

Symbiotic
I housed you
And you slowly kill your host
Manifest to your hate
So you can feel whole

I tried to hide the lives you ruined
With your self-destructive guilt
You should just hide
And bury your burdens
Now you passed on the poison
That became destructive ways
You swore to change
But you
Just couldn't break away

But it's no excuse

I watch our child grow violent
He mimics the only role he knows
The abusive parent
I pray our daughter doesn't mimic
Me and love abuse

Maybe it's my fault
For loving abuse
My downfall is
I'm always craving the bruise

Ashamed of the life I seem to crave
I distort my reality to say it ok

I tried to hide the lives you ruined
With your self-destructive guilt
You should just hide
And bury your burdens
Now you passed on the poison
That became destructive ways
You swore to change
But you
Just couldn't break away

Do you feel proud
To see you only daughter love abuse?
Do you feel sick so see your only son grow up like you?