First day of the rest of my life
I say over and over as I try to convince myself
Yeah, the first day of the rest of my life
Product of twenty something years somehow just passing me by
A day becomes a month and here I am
Fabricating meaning, justifying circumstance
Sprawling aimlessly about the house
Retracing my mistakes
When all I want is just for this to feel worth it
All I want for you to feel is vice versa
All I want is just for this to make me feel something again
Something that I haven't felt in forever
I wanna be like them
Put the entirety of my being in a god's hands
Wanna wake up, wake up feeling taken care of
Not left down here alone to chase my tail in circles
I wanna write a song like that
Like this is for the ones that made it out
And this is for the ones still stuck here wrestling with doubt
And this is for the ones that live it day in and day out
When all we want is just for this to feel worth it
That crippling doubt replaced with a sense of purpose
All we want is just for this to make us feel something again
To feel your touch even if we find it hurts us