NotKevin - Breaking Down Lyrics

Lately I just seem
I've been trapped inside a dream
And it really seems to me
I can't scream or sing
Loud enough
To stop the pain I'm feeling
The days are fleeing
My mind is racing, my heart is aching
And I am breaking down
I just wanna run far away from my feelings
Wanna drink the days away, I'm not breathing
I'm not breathing anymore
I just want to pour
Another shot

It seems the parties over
My friends all think I'm fun
They always love to hangout
They don't know I've got a gun
They don't know I have a gun
They don't know I have a gun

I'm not the one to take my life
But I'm not afraid to die
I'm just ready to go
I feel so damn alone
I've been fighting this feeling for months
And I don't know how much longer I can go on
I don't wanna go on
I just wanna go away
Disappear let me fade into oblivion

I just wanna run away
But I can't run away I've got bills to pay
No way to pay them, no job no place to stay and
I'm just ready to go
About to lose my home
My sanity is spinning down the drain
Yeah I'm in pain
I've said it time and time again
I'm ready for the end
I'm just ready for the end please let my life begin, again
Just let my life begin, again
I just want this pain to end
This pain just has to end
And I just don't know how to feel
None of this is real
None of this is real to me