Novae - Graymatter // 10:56 (feat. Wave Mmlz) Lyrics

I wanna do this forever
Creating this music
Bringing people together
But sometimes...
I feel nothing matters
Like my lips lost sense of laughter
Incapable of making any effort to sever
The thoughts that drag me deeper & deeper
Into the Gray Matter
Don't wanna do this forever
I keep getting lost in the problems of others
Cause sometimes...
I feel so much better when the ones I love
Are overcome with laughter
But my lungs still can't seem to muster a chuckle, chest buckles
Feel like my being is being smothered
We're all lovers till you start feeling that heartburn
Turning on yourself but remember Even Stars burst

Forever, don't wanna do this forever

Thinking, I've been thinking that I don't matter
But I know better, I know it's deeper than my gray matter
Brain splatter like ya falling off of Jacobs Ladder
The latter day saints' heavy appetites grow fatter
Thinking, been thinking that I'm thinking too much
Brain feeling frail like chains that'd begun to rust
Can't trust half you f*cks that claim to roll with us
Tape ya mouth shut if you speaking anything but
The truth
They're too reliant on you to drop everything
So they can come & cry to you
Ever since I lied to you
Been trying to
Rebuild the bridge with trust & love
All else above
Thrown to the wind, like a couple of doves
My inner self won't let me fly
But when push comes to shove
You might be a bit surprised
Cause I was raised a lover not a fighter
But I'm like McGregor
When I have to fight my own fire
Tie me down tighter
There's a demon on my shoulder & his only desire
Is to push me down farther
Why I'm always getting higher
10:56 & still on the same cypher
I don't wanna do this forever

I don't wanna do this forever
But I keep getting smothered by all the clutter
My mother, I know that she's proud of me
And what I'm accomplishing
But how can I pride myself and my philosophy
When I still kill myself in my own dreams
I wake up & I doubt this reality
Is this really me? Nothing's what it seems
Living a human life In this society is trying me
I'd rather just float up into the clouds, never come down
Drown myself with the sound of thunder
I'm a tree rebuilding this bridge with my own lumber
Delete my social security number
Catch me flying with the radar I'm under
I just want eternal slumber
But I guess I'll keep pushing through the days
For the sake of my brothers
Keep pushing forever
For the sake of my lover
For myself, for the better
I wanna do this forever