OA - Demons Lyrics

I still remember those days, Everything was so fresh, there was no pain
Everything was so great, there was no rain
Every single step we took was a new day
Then it all changed, I dug a hole that was six feet deep
That I turned into my own grave
If ya asked me right now
I guarantee you that I couldn't even tell you the first letter of my own name
I swear to God that I don't know how it happened
Everything was so good and then it vanished
I sunk inside another bottle of whiskey with a little side of pills
I was hoping would kill me
And everything just faded to black
Hoping that I would never come back
I promise you I never wanted to die
But I just couldn't live another day stuck in a lie

I get lost in the stars when I'm with you, every day
I get lost in the atmosphere, the atmosphere of life
I get lost in the stars when I'm with you, every day
I get lost in the atmosphere, the atmosphere of life

I went to war with the demons
The enemy was telling me that I'm dreamin'
But every time I looked around there was no one
It was just me yelling out to God that I need him
Ever wonder what it's like to feel abandoned
Like everybody is just taking you for granted
Like you could disappear forever
And there wouldn't be a second thought to anyone around you on the planet
I didn't know just how to handle my depression
Did everything that I could to make it lessen
But it really didn't matter what I did
Cause at the end of the day I never thought I was a blessing
Nah man, I've been nothing but a curse
And no matter what I do I make it worse
I try to take away the pain with medication
But it doesn't work, and it never did, no it still hurts

I get lost in the stars when I'm with you, every day
I get lost in the atmosphere, the atmosphere of life
I get lost in the stars when I'm with you, every day
I get lost in the atmosphere, the atmosphere of life

I never thought anybody could save me
I look to God cause I'm tired and angry
To be honest I don't know what to do
Cause every time I turn around you were looking to raise me
I was dead, I was six feet under
Said goodbye to the little kid that used to wonder
Is there anybody out there bigger than me
Cause if there is I really hope we meet eventually
Yeah, so I look up to the sky, with hands raised high
And wonder why I am still alive
Is there something out there bigger for me
Is there more than holding on for dear life, a grand design
In that moment I was brought to my knees
As I heard a little whisper say, "My son, please"
I've been here all along and I'll never forsake you
Till the day that you die, I will always be with you

I get lost in the stars when I'm with you, every day
I get lost in the atmosphere, the atmosphere of life
I get lost in the stars when I'm with you, every day
I get lost in the atmosphere, the atmosphere of life