Heavy Video (MV)

Sometimes it gets hard when I look at the world and see nothing but pain and distress
Where people are dying from hunger and others are dying from being depressed
I wish I could help, but I'm almost as broken and tired as all of the rest
I put up a guard and I try to be tough, but the bullets go right through the vest
I just wanna love all the throwaways, but I struggle with loving myself
I feel like I'm lacking the comfort I'm desperately trying to give someone else
It's hard when your running on empty, to work up the courage to help
I know that I'm fading and honestly need to take note of my own mental health
It isn't as easy as flashing a smile and saying I'm doing okay
At moments I feel like I'm fine, but I know that I'm not, and I struggle with faith
I struggle with doubt and I struggle believing the words that I speak when I pray
I know in my heart it's a season, so why is it easy to push Him away
Dear heavenly father, I know that I need you, I'm down on my knees once again
I know that you see me, I know that you hear me, and I'm reaching out for your hand
You tell me I'm worthy, you know that I'm hurting, you tell me that you understand
I'm asking for peace, and I'm asking for sleep, cause my body is too weak to stand

Why does everything gotta be so heavy, heavy, heavy
Why does everything gotta be so heavy, heavy, heavy
Jesus I don't know if I'll ever be ready, ready, ready
Why does everything gotta be so.. heavy, heavy
Yeah

There's blood in the streets and I'm tired of seeing my brothers get killed on the news
We're all human beings, so what makes you think they are less
Cause they're different than you
Who cares if their skin is a little bit darker, the blood in their veins is still blue
What makes you think that the value of life is defined by the hate you imbue
I'm honestly sick to my stomach and can't even fathom the level of pain
Or what it is like to be scared to just go for a walk with a hood in the rain
The fact that the shade of your melanin makes you less you human is more than insane
It's time for the ones with a voice to say something
It's time to take charge of the change
This isn't opinion, if you wanna argue, you already lost, that's a fact
Cause God made us equal, regardless of what you might think, or how you might act
The level of evil inside of your heart doesn't give you the right to attack
You think are stronger but really you're weak
And you're missing the spine from your back
Does that make you angry? Well good cause it should and it's time for the culture to shift
When Jesus said love on your neighbor, he meant even people with different skin
He gave us a mission to reach all the nations that doesn't just stop at your kin
Jesus I'm tired, but give me the strength to stand up for my brothers who can't

Why does everything gotta be so heavy, heavy, heavy
Why does everything gotta be so heavy, heavy, heavy
Jesus I don't know if I'll ever be ready, ready, ready
Why does everything gotta be so.. heavy, heavy
Yeah