Oje - Trazadone Lyrics

Resenting my oldest brother
He wasn't there for me
When I was in the hospital
Drowning waters deep
Carlito's Way then appeared to me
Middle of night doctors tried to kill me
Tying me down fighting for my life emergency
In the emergency room I think I need surgery
On my heart I don't think that it's working for me
Cursing the very God they gave me air to breathe
Trying to take a stand knock down to my knees
Turning the pill bottle up what's Ultimate plee
For help
Everybody was just bothering me
Or pushed me away instead of fathering me
As a child. Now As a man. Dear unborn child
Your father can't be father until your father is free
But the father that I go
Being a father seems father from me
Devil waiting bedside in the hospital seat
Where's Maurice?

Speaking for the empty souls.
Getting they life back in control
Put the pills down and start walking on gold
Your life is worth it don't give up just don't
Love is everywhere here's sativa to smoke
Keep wiping those tears let that pain go
I just change the gears when they tell me to slow
Running from it all run from all that I know
I ain't waiting for destiny to call me to go
Taking a leap faith driving the darkest roads
Doing the opposite of what they tell me so
I can see the truth not just from what I'm told
Everything within reason but that you already know
To my future wife I just want you to know
It took too long for OJe to grow
Life is a bitch I got no body to hold
Except for this Bottle of Trazadone
Help me!