Ominous the Monster - Still Got Mine Lyrics

My mother called my phone I could tell that she was stressed out
My brother was playing with coke and he almost checked out
A heart attack he only 25 and such a mess now
Having visions of him dead stretched out
I think I'm partly to blame for the path that he followed
I was promoting the wrong things as a role model
Like f*ck bitches do drugs and abuse bottles
Fight everybody hit licks and keep your heart hollow
It's funny how hurting myself don't have the same effect
I remember Dino in a coma when he broke his neck
Demanding that he take me home high off xans and percocet
That f150 flipped three times in that car wreck
The homie patty cake shot himself with a 38
Drunk sitting by himself too much time to contemplate
Talking to him on the phone he cutting up like life is great
Looking back it's clear he used to drink so he could numb the pain
I could of been in that deep sleep or hospital bed
Or inside that black bag with a whole in my head
Leaving Brian and Rhythm alone they won't understand
Stuck with memories of me and everything I ever said
I'm so f*cking selfish
Acting like I can't see
I take for granted every chance the universe have given me
So f*cking pitiful a sob story bitchin when I speak
Like I ain't lose so many people that weren't lucky as I be
I mean I'm sick of dancing with the devil the music no esla misma
Going back and forth at heavens door gambling with mi vida
Ignoring the fact that I've turned enemies into believers
So many people tell me I saved them inside my D.M.'s
Why would I keep pumping poison while writing these songs Replying to their messages telling them to stay strong
Promising that I'm a make it and carry our message on
And spread MiE across the nation until they sing along
Come on

I promise that I won't waste no time
It took awhile I apologize
I was lost now everything's alright
I got your back if you still got mine
I promise that I won't waste no time
It took awhile I apologize
I was lost now everything's alright
I got your back if you still got mine

Sometimes I lay on top my bed with my music on wondering
If I'd a gived up on my dreams just like my mother did
I'm trying to distribute the same love that my mother gives
While executing goals that'll feed me and my brothers kids
Generational wealth gotta move quick while keeping balance
I'm pretty sure that these pills have done permanent damage
But ask anyone i know I like a little challenge
All I gotta do is move In that direction then I'll have it
My fam getting out of prison I'm so happy I can see him
And tell him all the story's and the visions I've been seeing
We performed in front of ten people before he lost freedom
Now I'm packing out every local bar that I be in
I went from burning bridges to a building a f*cking dynasty
With Tony Dent, Bad Choices and Ruuch on the side of me
You understand what I'm saying the impossibility
I was a junkie and somehow I turned into some type of king
That's why I tell my children everyday there's royalty their blood
I hope they never have to hear about the person that I was
Or how I had to kick that door and use that pistol that I clutch
Or any other similar story of violence while in the mud
Cuz even though I'm a changed man the past don't forget
And there's no expiration for when Karma comes to collect
That's why there's no more freebies and features without a check
I figure I have shed enough blood, tears and sweat
Come on

I promise that I won't waste no time
It took awhile I apologize
I was lost now everything's alright
I got your back if you still got mine
I promise that I won't waste no time
It took awhile I apologize
I was lost now everything's alright
I got your back if you still got mine
I promise that I won't waste no time
Got your back if you still got mine
Took a while I apologize
I was lost, now everything's alright
Promise that I won't waste no time
Got your back if you still got mine
I apologize
I was lost now everything's alright
I promise that I won't waste no time
It took awhile I apologize
I was lost now everything's alright
I got your back if you still got mine
I promise that I won't waste no time
It took awhile I apologize
I was lost now everything's alright
I got your back if you still got mine