Ominous the Monster - Talking to a Wall Lyrics

It's no use talking to me don't need no advice
Guess it's easy for y'all to judge if y'all seen what it's like
Have your skin crawling shaking while you screaming at night
This paranoia kicking in so I keep it in sight
I ain't addicted anyways I only dose for anxiety
My auntie telling me I've changed I'm pretty sure that she lying to me
Constantly blaming all my homies for the person I'm trying to be
You f*cking clowns I don't see the hype with all y'all sobriety
Let me guess you'd rather see me at a dead end job
Surrounded by people I don't like with some red head broad
Who has nothing to else to offer but pussy and gossip
Attending church every weekend always worshipping god
F*ck that I'm a pop pills and raw dog shortys
Chain smoke cigarettes while I'm drowning in 40s
Sell meth to the neighborhood until cops come for me
And ignore my mothers phone calls like I'll call back shortly

I wish they leave me alone
What's the point of living anyways?
Most of y'all are dissappointed with type of life y'all made
I'd rather be alone
I don't need another man to judge me
You don't even like yourself
Deep down your still ugly
I wish they leave me alone
What's the point of living anyways
Most of y'all are dissappointed with type of life y'all made
I'd rather be alone
I don't need another man to judge me
You don't even like yourself
Deep down you're still ugly

I know that
Come on let's take a Kodak
We can politic and drink my grandmothers Prozac
You can tell me how I'm wrong and how I know that
Try to convince me I'm a good guy like where the dope at?
You better get that condescending high and mighty pitch up out your voice
All that seeing eye to eye trying to level like we boys
I don't like you
I'm sick of fake love and all that noise
Constantly talking bout Xanax, alcohol and opioids
I'm aware I'm killing myself you ever think it's on purpose?
You know what kind of demons I'm dealing with under the surface?
You know how many times I seen my mother beat behind curtains?
Man f*ck all this explaining myself it ain't even worth it

I wish they leave me alone
What's the point of living anyways
Most of y'all are dissappointed with type of life y'all made
I'd rather be alone
I don't need another man to judge me
You don't even like yourself
Deep down your still ugly
I wish they leave me lone
What's the point of living anyways
Most of y'all are dissappointed with type of life y'all made
I'd rather be alone
I don't need another man to judge me
You don't even like yourself
Deep down your still ugly

My mother had to die to realize there was life in her stomach
A greyhound ripped in half and hurt more than a dozen
So now a baby's having a baby and she don't want kids
But regardless she still made the decision to let me live
So I grew up violated by baby sitters and step dads
Getting bullied by bigger the kids car crashes and whip lash
Alcoholic grandmothers, broken homes, domestic violence
Mother on the run from a women beating piece of garbage
I could f*cking scream I mean until my lunges give out
I'd be surprised if I'm alive when the sun comes out
Am I talking to a f*cking wall leave me alone.
Man I got nothing left to say
I just want to go home