Boy??? Video (MV)

I am afraid of loving you
Cuz I am afraid you're gonna leave real soon
So I'm gonna stay at my house tonight
Where nothing can harm me except the light
I think a lot about taking my life
Even if it's not mine to take
I always thought I would be your wife
But I guess I made a mistake

Cuz I like
Nail polish and glitter under my
Eyes and lipstick sometimes
And I don't like the way you make me
Hide like, like I don't deserve to be alive

I am a boy with question marks at the end
And I don't know what you thought you
Signed up for
But I can't
Play pretend that I can be
The husband of your dreams
I know I look the part
But that man, he isn't me

I am
Gonna be someone who makes me
Happy
I can't be with someone who makes me
Lonely
With someone who says that I am weak
I am here
I am queer
And I've had a few too many beers
I know it
I am far from
Perfect
I am not, a problem child I'm worth it
I am worth it

I am a boy with question marks at the end
And I don't know what you thought you
Signed up for
But I can't
Play pretend that I can be
The husband of your dreams
I know I look the part
But that man, he isn't me
I am a boy with question marks at the end
And I don't know what you thought you
Signed up for
But I can't
Play pretend that I can be
The husband of your dreams
I know I look the part
But that man, he isn't me