Paradise Refined - Despair Lyrics

As i wake i feel all of the pain inside
In the end i know it will lead to my demise
All these contorted thoughts cascading around
Is it any wonder i feel down

I feel this despair inside me
All I've ever known all I know
Tearing away at me inside
All I've ever known all I know

I can't take this breaking my heart

This pain coursing, slowly, taking away, sanity, my humanity
Help me please

Every minute I beg for this to end

I break my knuckles on walls in my head
Would i be better off dead

Fighting these urges to drown my sorrow
Dont give a f*ck if i live tomorrow
Thoughts of suicide plaguing my mind
This world is chaos its not kind

Break my bones
Killed by sorrow
Strip me of flesh
Dont want to see tomorrow

Drain my will