New Way of Living Video (MV)

My feelings are lost
And I'm feeling insane
It's so sad to say
But life corrupted my brain
I'm trying to move on
But I'm filled with pain
The love for my family
Has drifted away
I wish I could go back
When there was no pain
I wish that this suffering
Could just end today
I wish it was different
But things always change
Despite what I want
Things won't remain the same
I'm trying to better
I'm trying my best
But even then
My life is still a mess
I'm trying to change this
So I live content
The day I achieve it
Is the day I rest
Until then I'm staying strong
Hope that I'm staying long
I know they don't care
Cause all they do is play along
Treat me like nothing
But I'm still here hanging on
It's wrong how they treat me
Cause I never did them wrong
I'm tired of this
And I'm tired of them
They will not define me
I don't need revenge
At least when I'm well
I'll know they're all pretend
And won't have to suffer
All over again
Only have a few people
But they are not friends
To me they mean more
Cause they're til the end
Most days have been bitter
But those days will end
I'm counting my blessings
But can't say amen
It's hard to go on
When I'm living like this
But I must go on
I can not be a bitch
Must pursue what I want
If I wanna get rich
No one said it'd be easy
This life is a bitch
This life is a bitch
So it's sad I can't f*ck her
But even then
I still will choose to love her
She drives me insane
And she leads me to pains
But even then
I still love everyday
It's hard yes indeed
But you can't live with rage
You must learn to forgive
Before you leave this place
Accept everyone
Because they will not change
But don't stick around
And put up with their ways
It's insane to expect different
When you're doing the same
Always go by what is shown
Never go based off of their claims
Never too late to start something
So you shouldn't be afraid
Life is only what you make it
Don't be scared to make a change
Been doing what I think is right
I've been living by my ways
It's not only time from time
I do this shit everyday
The only time they will love me
Is when I'm in my grave
But what's the point of loving me
When it's way too late
I'm tired of this begging shit
Let's just forget it
Really wanted you to love me
But don't think you'll ever get it
Yeah I know it hurts
I'll be the first to admit it
But after everything
I found a new way of living