Peter's Garage - Disordered Lyrics

Lucifer I'm calling through the shadows of the night
Cause I'm feeling vindictive
Ever since that fatal day a knot has being tied
Should I follow my instincts?
Or should I go on
Chewing on the bitter fruit again
Making all the same mistakes again
Or do I keep these feelings to myself?
Tell me friend
Jesus Christ almighty all my nerve ends they are numb
Could I get your attention?
Lately I have rested with my head upon a bomb
Is it my apprehension?
Or do I go on
Searching for the dark spot in the sun
Looking through the barrel of a gun
Why do I keep these feelings to myself?
Tell me son
I would give all I own for some piece of mind
At this state I'm in
I would turn all my tears into smiles again
Redemption from within
Doctor can I lend your ear I'm almost getting through
There are holes in my fences
I could swear that ray of light was not a déjà vu
Take away the consequences
So I can come back
Making little progresses every day
Making sure these monsters go away
Letting my dearest know that it will all be OK again