Is it bad I always want more?
Is it bad I keep anticipating the worst?
Scared of getting older just because I'm wasting time
Scared to medicate cos I'd be wasted all the time I'm
Craving validation, so scared of rejection
Scared of getting used to living in contempt
I
Regret everything I said in moments of sincerity
Wish you didn't even know my name, that's so embarrassing
I'm so scared that I'll grow and start to resent myself
For everything I didn't do
For everyone I didn't prove wrong
For not pushing forward
For not getting over myself
And everything else
I could've been great
"So why didn't you stay?
Why did you hide on sidelines?"
Always on the borderline being caught between
Wanting to jump but being too scared to leap
5:22 in the morning
Can't sleep so I'm up and I'm wondering
Why I'm so bad at healing
Get well soon tat on my finger
Pretty much lost all of its meaning