Plainstate - Matchbook Lyrics

I don't wanna be afraid
Of everything I can't explain away
Can we talk about it?
I don't wanna die alone
In a room miles away from home
Will they even find me?
I'm breaking a sweat, pacing around
Bracing myself to hit the ground
But it don't take me out
I try to realize
That this has happened 20,000 times
And it always ends the same
I know how to lie to get to the truth
I say "you're doing fine, it's just a thing that you do"
But when the deep breaths don't do the trick
What do you turn to?
When the secret to all this shit
No one can tell you
And I just find it hard to walk away from this
When everything's a fire from the matchbook that I lit
Should I keep it to myself?
Oh, it's tough to tell
I just wanna feel the way
That everybody else always seems to claim
Do I even believe it?
So is this what it is?
We put on a show
Grinding our teeth so nobody knows
But when the deep breaths don't do the trick
What do you turn to?
When the secret to all this shit
No one can tell you
And I just find it hard to walk away from this
When everything's a fire from the matchbook that I lit
Should I keep it to myself?
Oh, it's tough to tell
It's a shame that I can't go back
I'm not even sure if I could it would matter
I wanna say it's just one thing but in the back of my mind
I know that It's always been with me
In the back of my mind
It's always been with me
But I don't wanna be afraid
Of everything I can't explain away
But when the deep breaths don't do the trick
What do you turn to?
And the secret to all this shit
No one can tell you
And I find it hard to walk away from this
When everything's a fire from the matchbook that I lit
Should I keep it to myself?
Oh, it's tough to tell