Pre.S - Pressure Lyrics

This one of them perspective raps
I ain't going through it, but somebody is

Recently my life hasn't been nothing close to good
Tragic path set out for you when you live in the hood
Swear I'd try to make it out if it seemed like I could
Either way I know I should and today I really wish that I would
Grow up, grow up
My family depends on me, I never show up
Grow up, grow up
My family depends on me, I never show up

Start the story in 8th grade, this was way back in the day
In the bathroom minding my own, I could not wait to get home
Then a boy come out the stall with a blunt I gave my all
But eventually I caved in and nothing has been the same since
Blowing clouds in school, got the boot once or twice
But I did not care, I'm just trying to live my life
Started selling in high school, Momma tried to say bye fool
I just cannot take you, this ain't how I raised you
I said you right, ain't been here since day one
If you never wanted to take care then why in the world would you make one
Dad's not here to give me the ropes and give me path
But I got a good feeling he was the same and ran up his bag
Now I'm in college, had to put in some mileage
Mom was holding me hostage, now I'm scheming and plotting
To go and pop a couple pills, we only do it for thrills
We only do it to chill, highs feeling so high
Now the lows too low and it's making me feel like

Recently my life hasn't been nothing close to good
Tragic path set out for you when you live in the hood
Swear I'd try to make it out if it seemed like I could
Either way I know I should and today I really wish that I would
Grow up, grow up
My family depends on me, I never show up
Grow up, grow up
My family depends on me, I never show up

Didn't mention my bros in this 'cause it feel like I didn't have any
But now that I'm sobered up it feel like I got plenty
They glad I made it, I graduated, I got a job, I got a lady
Everything was so stable, so I messed around and we had a baby
Little did I know, I was 'bout to go
Right off of the deep-end my girly tell me no
I was like it's just dab, then dabbled into all my homie had
I don't even know half the names, and that's really where I felt ashamed
Couple years go by where I couldn't stop this cycle
My ex wife called me up and said the boy is badder than Michael
I said how could this happen; my child support should cancel out the trapping
He's in a good school, he looks really cool, but I guess that that's what trapped him
Yelled at him for dealing drugs, yelled at him that he's not a thug
Yelled at him enough is enough, explained how he's going to turn out a scrub
Told him that his momma worked hard, to keep him out the streets, show her some love
He said no, epiphany he is me, cried and gave him a hug

Recently my life hasn't been nothing close to good
Tragic path set out for you when you live in the hood
Swear I'd try to make it out if it seemed like I could
Either way I know I should and today I really wish that I would
Grow up, grow up
My family depends on me, I never show up
Grow up, grow up
My family depends on me, I never show up