Prodigy X - May 31st Lyrics

May 31st, how can i ever forget it
I thought you was the person that would of never did it
I thought it was fake, i was contemplating that for a minute
Until the tears in my eyes, was pushing past the limit
My Dad walked inside the room, tears on his face
At that moment, i knew, something wasn't fake
He finally said it, there's only so much he can take
That was the day, all the family's hearts started to break
I was on FaceTime with my girl, i left, i said I love you
I'm sorry for a couple nights i'm gonna have to unplug you
Cause there's a lot at that moment i just realized
That my cousin pulled the trigger, man, he committed suicide
Honestly i thought all of it was a lie
The guy that i grew up decided to die
That's when i started pushing everything off to the side
And started thinking stupid things about my life
Ain't gonna lie, those were my darkest
That's when me and my family started parting ways
Thoughts coming in quicker, problems getting thicker
That's when i started drowning myself in liquor, man
Why did you go
Why did you have to leave
Why did you go
Why
Yeah
Everything faded to black
I dropped everything, from basketball to rap
I never thought i would ever put you on a track
But the way that you went out was really wack, and that's a fact
My cousin is no longer on the map
He was going through depression drinking and doing crack
But I know he's in heaven, wishing he can take it back
But it's hard, when every single person was always on attack
Man i wish you here bro, i really miss you
I ain't gonna lie, i've been going through so many issues
Damn man, everyday i wish i was there with you
Cause i could of thought of a million ways to convince you
You were my cousin, my ride or die, my brother
I know you haven't been the same since you lost your mother
She died too, car crash, back in 04'
And i know deep down you couldn't take life no more
You have a beautiful child, her name is Jenny
I'm telling you this right now Don, she's worth every penny
Without her inside my life, to be honest i would empty
Cause the thought of you being gone is getting pretty heavy, man
Ain't gonna lie, i've been on a constant decline
With all of my rhymes, my grind, i didn't really wanna shine
I had a girl at the time, giving off a certain vibe
That she didn't really care that my cousin died, due to suicide
She never asked how i was doing "I'm doing fine"
I lied, cause all i had was you on my mind
Don't take this as a diss, i'm just putting your life into view
This is what i have to do, man this song is dedicated to you
Yeah
Why did you
Why did you have to leave
Yeah