Golden Video (MV)

Is this a dream?
Is everything inside my head?
Is this a dream?
Am I alive or am I dead?
I'm just worried that when you leave you'll mean it this time
I've come to realize that I'm just a consolation prize
I wish I could live inside your perfect blue eyes or better yet your mind
Let me kill your monsters and all your demons
Wish that when I said I love you you understood the meaning
Before you I was grieving the feelings that never was
I'm alone and it was the same before you came along
You just showed me the way I was living was wrong
Wish that I could say all this without having to write a song
But f*ck it I guess, hope you listen whilst hitting your bong
Is this a dream?
Am I alive or am I dead?
I was like an old toy that was thrown away
One that they don't wanna play
A noise they would rather drown out
Then you came around
Way that you saw me as golden
Way that I felt I was chosen
Way that you took my heart after it was so frozen
Still feeling broken
Don't really understand
Always putting pressure on myself
Just the man that I am
I don't think I'll ever change
I'm scared of my rage
Know that this scares you too
Scares me how much I f*cking love you
Am I alive or am I dead
Am I in heaven or hell
Scared that you'll break my heart
But you'll keep the pieces and I'll never tell